these are things i had written down i just havent put them in here yet!
it really makes me mad sometimes how people can take something great and ALWAYS find the bad in it like nothing is ever good enough for them, nothing is ever right, no matter how hard you try, you will NEVER make them happy! sometimes it just gets old. i found myself stopping sometimes and asking myself okay, can i be me today or would piss someone off? can i tell someone how i really feel about something or would that just upset them? After a while it just gets easier to just smile and agree with them and then after some time you forget all together what it was you wanted to say and what your thoughts were on it! it becomes easier to not fight with them it becomes easier to not have your own feelings, to just let them tell you what to think and you get so caught up in this web that one day you wake and its just like you've become someone else and you dont know what to think about it because these past months someone has always told you what to think and for the first time in a long time you have your own thoughts but you've had these other peoples thoughts in your head so long that now it feels like what you REALLY feel is wrong like you should never think on your own.