This has been the most sucktacular week ever, part I
I'll tell you why. First of all, after seeing Adi, I admit I had a good time, but I'm not sure I want to be with her anymore. I don't really even want to talk to her. It's hard to explain, it's true I like her very much and everything about her is great, but maybe the truth is I'm just tired of the whole thing. I could write about specific reasons, but I'm not going to. This has always been a part of my life I've never been to thrilled about, it just always seems more work and stress and so many things involved in it have always stricken me as very fake. And it always ends up badly, practically always, unless you're one of the .004% of people who end up getting married and stay married for life and the couple actually still love each other until the end. I'm not saying I'm giving up, that'll never happen. I'm saying that I'm going to be really, really careful I don't end up in a dead-end relationship, which will almost definitely happen over and over and over again. Until I find the perfect person, even if I happen to be making a mistake at the time and I'm in somthing that's an abvious dead-end, I don't want to talk about love or about relationships.