This monkeys gone to Heaven
Its nights like this i really hate. those ones where your not tired, nothing on tv, nothing to do and your all alone. You start feeling lonely as you struggle to find something to do. You start to think about your life and your past, all the thing you wish you could change, You wonder why can't things be easier, why could i be one of the ones that have it made. Its hard to look at positive when there are so many negatives. You sit staring at the computer screen zoning out as you listen to music at twice the normal speed. You wonder about having super power and making people burst into flames. You think of all the happy times and wonder why you can't be there, go back in time and never come back. Wondering of all the things that have changed your life. What if my parents didn't have more kids, what if i moved up north, what if i went to texas, what if we didn't get robbed. You can never know, just always imagine. I think about Karma....and wonder where i fucked up with that. I think the white walls around me are slowly closing in. My room gets smaller with each passing day. I wonder why i am here, what i am for. Maybe its time for bed, have to get up early, to many things to do- to little time. All my days blur together, wake up not knowing what day it is. Work Sleep Work Sleep Work Sleep, and for as much as i am working i have no money. The last video game i bought was GTA San Andreas which was around the end of 2004. It just suck knowing that i am exactly where i was 3-4 years ago. I wish i could just start over.