humans disgust me
so its been a little while,
last monday was my birthday, so i spent the entire week drinking until finally hitting the grand finale at my birthday party this past saturday.
so for the past week ive had the runs, which i know beer played a part in the first half, but i question whats wrong with me for the second.
i havent eaten anything really since sunday, and have thrown up 3 times since saturday, once due to drinking, twice due to eating.
and to top it all off, i cant fucking sleep at all. i slept 4 hours last night, 2 hours the night before (then went for my first day of my new job btw, at the holiday inn as a housekeeper), and 4 the night before (but that night was my party, so i had reasons to barely sleep then.
youd think i was complaining, which i mildy am do, but honestly at the same time im thrilled. the past two nights ive painted, the first with mike which is a more common thing but last night since i couldnt sleep i started working on something and smoked probably a cut over the period of 3 or 4 hours and im not done yet but very proud of what has came so far, finally, though i hate my body fully, and being high doesnt always put me in a place where i can say i feel good over the past two days, but at least i grasped inspiration again and dig my art.
in other news, tom waits is coming to akron ohio in august, tickets are 65 dollars, which yes is alot, but id pay well over a hundred to see tom waits, so its all good and me and mike are ordering are tickets first thing on friday morning on the internet.
so im now 20, and you know what ive decided since being twenty, well nothing really i havent thought of before being 20, but none the less ive decided that human beings really are kind of a disease, some grow on you, some are out to destroy you, some grown on you but you wish you had a vaccine or gun. i really know you have to be careful on finding the good humans in this world, cause many will fuck you. remember, emotions are meaningless, thats partial protection. i just cant wait till we destroy ourselves, in the mean time, im moving on.
i doubt anyone will even read this that could help me, but by chance does anyone know were to get salvador dali subway posters of his art? if so please hook it up with a link, im looking more specifically for hallucinagetic torredor (i know i hacked the shit out of how thats spelled, but i really dont care)
well, im going to go save the world, take care.
last monday was my birthday, so i spent the entire week drinking until finally hitting the grand finale at my birthday party this past saturday.
so for the past week ive had the runs, which i know beer played a part in the first half, but i question whats wrong with me for the second.
i havent eaten anything really since sunday, and have thrown up 3 times since saturday, once due to drinking, twice due to eating.
and to top it all off, i cant fucking sleep at all. i slept 4 hours last night, 2 hours the night before (then went for my first day of my new job btw, at the holiday inn as a housekeeper), and 4 the night before (but that night was my party, so i had reasons to barely sleep then.
youd think i was complaining, which i mildy am do, but honestly at the same time im thrilled. the past two nights ive painted, the first with mike which is a more common thing but last night since i couldnt sleep i started working on something and smoked probably a cut over the period of 3 or 4 hours and im not done yet but very proud of what has came so far, finally, though i hate my body fully, and being high doesnt always put me in a place where i can say i feel good over the past two days, but at least i grasped inspiration again and dig my art.
in other news, tom waits is coming to akron ohio in august, tickets are 65 dollars, which yes is alot, but id pay well over a hundred to see tom waits, so its all good and me and mike are ordering are tickets first thing on friday morning on the internet.
so im now 20, and you know what ive decided since being twenty, well nothing really i havent thought of before being 20, but none the less ive decided that human beings really are kind of a disease, some grow on you, some are out to destroy you, some grown on you but you wish you had a vaccine or gun. i really know you have to be careful on finding the good humans in this world, cause many will fuck you. remember, emotions are meaningless, thats partial protection. i just cant wait till we destroy ourselves, in the mean time, im moving on.
i doubt anyone will even read this that could help me, but by chance does anyone know were to get salvador dali subway posters of his art? if so please hook it up with a link, im looking more specifically for hallucinagetic torredor (i know i hacked the shit out of how thats spelled, but i really dont care)
well, im going to go save the world, take care.