Is it great we're standing tall
Morning all
Well what another crazy day in the mere minagure of specticles that makes Johns life quiet as rich and varied as it is.....
Today I got up rather late again and did some reading before pelting into London to spend some time with the lovely Helen before heading off to MCH. There I met with LZ to discuss MPH in E on 2/7/05.
Then when I got back here I helped my friend out with a fundraising gig that he was running by being the quiz assistant and publicity man on the day.
It was all great Japes, but like another thing I helped out at, I feel rather empty afterwards and filled with a sense of not only could have done better - but could have achieved more. This is not good and has been a recent occurance of my "public" appearances and leaves me more and more worried. But what this then leads me onto is an old rant, that at least one person (with whom I share so much yet rarely see) will have heard. That I am not fully apreciated for what I commit to and subsequently do.
Why (you bellow at the computer) is that something that comes out of a charity gig? Well because I did all of the above and didnt even get a mention when friend x was running through all the people who "made the event possible" , nor did he make comments at any time to me personaly. I felt used by the end of it - used because on no level had my work been apreciated. This is not a quest for self gratification, more a realisation from other people of work that has been put in. Indeed I know of very few people who comment on such things when they are performed and I find it so much more a joy to work with them.. This is due to it becoming an interaction rather than a service.
Well, I have made it out to a SU night and only had a pint and made it back in the same state I left. In the grand scheme of things all I suppose is well. Usual issues stand and my crossword puzzling is plummiting which is definatly not good. But all is generaly well and I am living and breathing, I suppose a slight bonus.
Take Care Y'All
John
Well what another crazy day in the mere minagure of specticles that makes Johns life quiet as rich and varied as it is.....
Today I got up rather late again and did some reading before pelting into London to spend some time with the lovely Helen before heading off to MCH. There I met with LZ to discuss MPH in E on 2/7/05.
Then when I got back here I helped my friend out with a fundraising gig that he was running by being the quiz assistant and publicity man on the day.
It was all great Japes, but like another thing I helped out at, I feel rather empty afterwards and filled with a sense of not only could have done better - but could have achieved more. This is not good and has been a recent occurance of my "public" appearances and leaves me more and more worried. But what this then leads me onto is an old rant, that at least one person (with whom I share so much yet rarely see) will have heard. That I am not fully apreciated for what I commit to and subsequently do.
Why (you bellow at the computer) is that something that comes out of a charity gig? Well because I did all of the above and didnt even get a mention when friend x was running through all the people who "made the event possible" , nor did he make comments at any time to me personaly. I felt used by the end of it - used because on no level had my work been apreciated. This is not a quest for self gratification, more a realisation from other people of work that has been put in. Indeed I know of very few people who comment on such things when they are performed and I find it so much more a joy to work with them.. This is due to it becoming an interaction rather than a service.
Well, I have made it out to a SU night and only had a pint and made it back in the same state I left. In the grand scheme of things all I suppose is well. Usual issues stand and my crossword puzzling is plummiting which is definatly not good. But all is generaly well and I am living and breathing, I suppose a slight bonus.
Take Care Y'All
John