I was thinking about Virginia this evening while I was at work. I was also thinking about the past. As tends to happen when I'm thinking overly much about nothing in particular
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"Yes! and True! this is nothing but self-motivated Narcisism. I need to feel better about who I am. This can't happen until I make up for the things that have gone on in the past. Because I can't help but continue to keep thinking about them."
The fact that you feel the way you do is testament to the fact you are better than you think you may be. You do not have to right every wrong you feel you made in your life, no one does. If we did, then I think we would trying to fix things constantly because it is human to make mistakes on a regular basis, no matter how big or small. All we can do is fix some of the ones we feel are most important, no matter the size. I don't think that you realize how much dignity & self respect you do have for yourself right now. If you didn't have either, you wouldn't feel as you do.
"Do Other people have this problem,.? Do Other people know when to just stop thinking about it,.?"
Yes, lots of people feel the way you do, though lots of people don't and it can define what kind of person you are. Those that do feel as you do are the ones who will try not to repeat their mistakes & always try to do better, they are generally good people. The ones who don't feel like you do, and don't think about it, are the ones who don't care, not about what they have done, will do, or even about themselves. It is sad that there are so many like that but it is reality. Just be glad you don't fall into that category, you are far better than that, anyone who knows you knows that.
"I mean Christ! I still feel bad about a Music CD that I had taken from the Office of my Manager when I was working @ The Tech. College, and had not gotten back to her, before I moved out of State and Thusly Lost Said CD. Jeez-o-pete!
That incident happened Over 6 Years Ago. Am I right to say it's O.K. to just forget about that,.? "
Well I wouldn't say its ok to completely forget about it, but yes it is ok to let it go. It happened a long time ago and you didn't mean to have it happen as it did. Live and learn then move on. The thing to remember is that you don't need to forget, don't want to forget, because once you do, you will not care anymore and thats not the way you want to go. To remember whatever mistakes we have made in our past is what can make us better. Just because we make mistakes & do stupid things, doesn't make us bad people, it just means we are human. Good people do stupid things all the time, it's how we learn and grow. As long as we remember what we have done, there is going to be regret & pain, but that is what it means to be a good person. I for one would much rather learn to live with those feelings than not if it what it takes to stay a good human being.
Ok I am shutting up now, didn't realize I typed so much out. I will see you on Sunday.
The fact that you feel the way you do is testament to the fact you are better than you think you may be. You do not have to right every wrong you feel you made in your life, no one does. If we did, then I think we would trying to fix things constantly because it is human to make mistakes on a regular basis, no matter how big or small. All we can do is fix some of the ones we feel are most important, no matter the size. I don't think that you realize how much dignity & self respect you do have for yourself right now. If you didn't have either, you wouldn't feel as you do.
"Do Other people have this problem,.? Do Other people know when to just stop thinking about it,.?"
Yes, lots of people feel the way you do, though lots of people don't and it can define what kind of person you are. Those that do feel as you do are the ones who will try not to repeat their mistakes & always try to do better, they are generally good people. The ones who don't feel like you do, and don't think about it, are the ones who don't care, not about what they have done, will do, or even about themselves. It is sad that there are so many like that but it is reality. Just be glad you don't fall into that category, you are far better than that, anyone who knows you knows that.
"I mean Christ! I still feel bad about a Music CD that I had taken from the Office of my Manager when I was working @ The Tech. College, and had not gotten back to her, before I moved out of State and Thusly Lost Said CD.
Jeez-o-pete!
That incident happened Over 6 Years Ago. Am I right to say it's O.K. to just forget about that,.? "
Well I wouldn't say its ok to completely forget about it, but yes it is ok to let it go. It happened a long time ago and you didn't mean to have it happen as it did. Live and learn then move on. The thing to remember is that you don't need to forget, don't want to forget, because once you do, you will not care anymore and thats not the way you want to go. To remember whatever mistakes we have made in our past is what can make us better. Just because we make mistakes & do stupid things, doesn't make us bad people, it just means we are human. Good people do stupid things all the time, it's how we learn and grow. As long as we remember what we have done, there is going to be regret & pain, but that is what it means to be a good person. I for one would much rather learn to live with those feelings than not if it what it takes to stay a good human being.
Ok I am shutting up now, didn't realize I typed so much out. I will see you on Sunday.
*HUGS*
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