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This is whiny/angsty/bitchy Rant here. Just so anyone wants to know,.
AND! it's about my love life on top of that,......So if you want to get out now,...that's fine with me,.
So Shit! fucking again, with a really "Nice"/cute boy,. Who I've known for 2 years. (I thought it was three but I was wrong.) Was @ the event last weekend. I thought; "Great!, this will be someone to cuddle with for the Wake."
Sadly was not to be. After Only 1 time with Kissing/cuddling/a little-bit-of touching, this boy, (Pervious event, about 1 month and 1/2 ago.) I get the ; "It's not you It's Me" Line,.
WTF! that is the single lamest excuse in the book. Claiming that someone else is better than you totally devalues, Not Only YOU! but them as well. You don't know their Mental state. You don't know if they're more adequate to be in society than you are. It's unfair and untrue to make any statement to the Contrary.
I don't know if that made any Sense,........But God Damn!
I'm so sick of this shit!
I'm sick of falling in Love, (Or atleast very deep Lust) With men who can't *BE* comfortable being Gay. Or Even Bi-Sexual. Good Christ!
What do you want,.? A Medal,.? A Purple Heart,.? Jeez! You know,....before you go and start crying about, hating/Denying/hiding/avoiding your Sexuality,....Why not give actually being GAY! a Moment to cry about,.? ,...Huh!? Yeah,.....It's not like it's the easiest thing to be gay.
Good God. Cry about something that's actually worth crying about,.....Then Move On! god! *sigh*,.......That's how we've survived,.....That's how, all of Us Gay/Minority/Female/Trans-Gender,.....Anybody,.....Continues living,.
Here I started out writing a personal rant and it ends up including Everyone,.
*Laughs* You know,.....this is why I continue Backing Humanity. I can't stand the thought that; "This is the best it's going to be."
I keep looking forward to the good it Could "BE" in the future,.
So Anyways,.
That's about it,.
Perhaps It'll be a better post later on,.
Later all,
~M~