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I'm underappreciated. That's the way you all make me feel.
If it's my fault, raise your voice. I want to hear your side.
This is the most bullshit epiphany I've had in a long time. I mean, maybe I really am someone who doesn't accomplish anything. Ya know, cuz I didn't graduate from a four year institution in three years, move out on my own at the age of 17, hold up four credit cards without blemish, and excel in everything else I do. No, fuck you. I'm less than average.
I don't know how to keep an actual friendship.
I'm also sick of being asked what I want:
I want to be 21. I want my apartment to be full of roommates. I want people that will talk to me about their problems and know that I'll be able to help them. I want cuddle-time. I want gas prices to go down. I want someone I can share my deepest darkest secrets with. I want my band to succeed. I want to know that everything's going to be alright. I want 40/hrs a week every week. I want the oil light in my car to turn off. I want my pinch harmonics to sound awesome. I want to see my half-brothers that I haven't seen for over 10 years.
I want someone to show interest.
That's what I want... and that's what I got, today... but not in the place I quite wanted it to happen. Sure, it's great for what it can do for me... but now I just feel out of place in terms of my friendships and my relationships outside of the workplace.
Fuck this.
I'm thankful for a lot.
I don't feel thanked for anything cuz I don't do shit.
I guess this is the Josh I've become. What good do I really bring?
If it's my fault, raise your voice. I want to hear your side.
This is the most bullshit epiphany I've had in a long time. I mean, maybe I really am someone who doesn't accomplish anything. Ya know, cuz I didn't graduate from a four year institution in three years, move out on my own at the age of 17, hold up four credit cards without blemish, and excel in everything else I do. No, fuck you. I'm less than average.
I don't know how to keep an actual friendship.
I'm also sick of being asked what I want:
I want to be 21. I want my apartment to be full of roommates. I want people that will talk to me about their problems and know that I'll be able to help them. I want cuddle-time. I want gas prices to go down. I want someone I can share my deepest darkest secrets with. I want my band to succeed. I want to know that everything's going to be alright. I want 40/hrs a week every week. I want the oil light in my car to turn off. I want my pinch harmonics to sound awesome. I want to see my half-brothers that I haven't seen for over 10 years.
I want someone to show interest.
That's what I want... and that's what I got, today... but not in the place I quite wanted it to happen. Sure, it's great for what it can do for me... but now I just feel out of place in terms of my friendships and my relationships outside of the workplace.
Fuck this.
I'm thankful for a lot.
I don't feel thanked for anything cuz I don't do shit.
I guess this is the Josh I've become. What good do I really bring?