Terminus.|
This is slightly surreal to be sitting here and trying to plan out exactly what to say. I've had this idea in mind for months at this point, yet it isn't really transmitting properly from thought to fingertip. I'm sure this isn't going to come as a huge surprise to very many of you, so I'm not going to drag it out any longer than it has to be. I don't have time for this anymore; a few things over the past few months have made me realize just how wrapped up I was in this game, and I needed to step back and look at it. I've done that, and now I think this is the right step for me. After BWE ended, this place hasn't felt the same, and for a lot of you, I'm sure that's a good thing. I'd like to extend a blanket apology to those of you whom I've managed to offend through that community and various other ways: this place is meant to be fun, where you can get away from what's going on in your life, and by my doing that, I took away from the experience (to a degree... for further words on this, keep reading). However, at this point, it seems like MBP has taken a downward turn towards the negative and rather than be sucked into it like I always am, I'm recognizing it and choosing not to be a part of it anymore.
I've been around in various forms, mainly two that have become notorious, for roughly three years, and I never thought I would've been one of those people that can say that. This community was and might still be amazing, I wouldn't know as I've been completely detached from it for months at this point. Like a lot of communal things, there comes a point where it isn't yours anymore, and you being around isn't really conducive to any kind of growth for said communal object and the people in it, whether old or new. Must Be Pop isn't my community anymore, it belongs to a new wave of people, which is strange to sit back and watch. On that same note, when you have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on with anyone, not even some of the people that you talked to on a regular basis, it's time to bow out, whether gracefully or not.
With that point in mind, I'd like to thank every one of you who's talked to me as Jake and about me as Jake. Must Be Pop really does give you a glimpse into the celebrity lifestyle, and it's so easy to get sucked into it for that same reason. You have your friends who take the time to get to know you, and you have the other people who think they know who you are and how you act based on the more visible things you do. The animosity passed back and forth between the members of this community is tiresome, yet in a sick and twisted way, I think it's a good thing in the way that it keeps the game moving forward and it really does give you a glimpse into how these people have to live their day to day lives, censoring their words and their actions in fear of ridicule. It's an experience.
I know a lot of people never really agreed with the way that I portrayed Jake, and that's fine. We can only pretend so much before we start filling in the expansive gaps with our own personalities. We don't know these people and chances are, we probably never will. We try and do them justice, based on what we read and what we see of our particular obsession, and that's the faulty point of this and brings it full circle: while we're sitting here and defending ourselves against other members of this community for saying shit that is typically unfounded and generalized, we're doing the same thing to our celebrity or celebrities of choice.
I'm not trying to preach, I just thought I'd share an observation, and this is becoming long, which I said it wasn't going to be. For the parts that you all are more than likely itching to see, I won't be choosing my successor, so please have at it. Who am I to decide who sounds and acts like Jake Gyllenhaal when no one will ever truly do this man justice? Whomever gets it, I hope you appreciate and adore him just as much as I do and probably forever will. I've unfriended most of you, but if you'd like to be kept on for whatever reason, just let me know and I'll add you back. I'm not in any other forms here, but if you'd like to say hey once in a while or something, the comments to this will be screened and I'll give you whatever info you want.
Thank you to Zooey, Mandy (R.I.P.), Garrett, Milo, Scott, Alex, Sean, Justin, Gina, Matthew, Zach, Rachel McAdams, Natalie, Lindsay, JC, Monica, and a list of people that is too long and will end up making this longer. I love you all.