life is one messed up ride
well one day you might be 100% and then the next min. you might be down at 25%.. fantastic right? yeah
idk i am just confused about everything. life. boys. everything in between.
i do have to admit i do miss writing in this thing because even though i don't think a lot of people read it, it still makes me feel better.
hmm.. i miss being at state, i miss seeing everyone that i usually spend time with every day. my team, what would i do without the team that is always there?!. idk, i am glad i have them, even though we gossip and make rumors it makes it worthwhile knowing that there are people there to support you.
i miss being able to go out on weekend and have craziness, but not too much, hahaha.
i hate being home now, i do, well besides the family part and my bed, other than that, its nothing. just somewhere to relax.
when i think about how people changed thier first year... i think that they didn't change, i changed, idk why but maybe its just me... its wierd but i think that happens when you move to college.
there was another point i wanted to talk about but i forgot it. oh well.
but life is crazy about how it works.. there is a reason why there isn't a thing called, "life's manual", because you have to learn as you go. you learn lessons to make yourself a better person, but you can either just except them or ignore them.
all i want to do in like is to be happy, and everything would be a happy ending.
until next time, and it might be a while...
<3