two lessons
Today I learnt two of the most important lessons in life.
The first was the lesson of disappointment. I was removed from a drivers course, as I just couldn't complete the competencies within the allotted time frame.
So as much as I feel like a bit of a retard for not being able to drive a truck, the staff have said ad nauseum that people are frequently removed from course, as the vehicle is difficult to drive. Furthermore, they said those people are rarely invited back, however they'd welcome me, once I've had more practice.
I know damn well that I'm no retard, I'm just frustrated with myself that I couldn't effect the advice that was given to me. I would know that I was doing something incorrectly and be trying to correct it, just I couldn't manage to get it corrected in the time frame.
I am however pleased that they noted my gear changing improved (it's a crash box) and that I did show improvement overall.
I feel frustrated, let down, incompetent and generally a failure. Probs safe to say pretty much my usual feelings, just a tad more intense - oh yeah, but now I feel relaxed, cause I don't have to worry about NO FUCKING ASSESSMENT OF MY DRIVING!!! (mini woot)!
and disapointed with myself. but that goes without saying.
The second thing I learnt is the importance of frienships.
A VERY BIG THANK-YOU TO J2 who took time out of her day today to listen to me cry like a bitch and whinge and sook and all those other things that one rarely admits to doing.
J2, very truely I tell you, I understand how busy you are and the sacrifices you made. If I could find the words to express my gratitude, believe you me, I would be using them already, so lets just leave it at THANKS!
If EVER I can repay you, then please, do not hesitate to call upon me.
till next time
J1
The first was the lesson of disappointment. I was removed from a drivers course, as I just couldn't complete the competencies within the allotted time frame.
So as much as I feel like a bit of a retard for not being able to drive a truck, the staff have said ad nauseum that people are frequently removed from course, as the vehicle is difficult to drive. Furthermore, they said those people are rarely invited back, however they'd welcome me, once I've had more practice.
I know damn well that I'm no retard, I'm just frustrated with myself that I couldn't effect the advice that was given to me. I would know that I was doing something incorrectly and be trying to correct it, just I couldn't manage to get it corrected in the time frame.
I am however pleased that they noted my gear changing improved (it's a crash box) and that I did show improvement overall.
I feel frustrated, let down, incompetent and generally a failure. Probs safe to say pretty much my usual feelings, just a tad more intense - oh yeah, but now I feel relaxed, cause I don't have to worry about NO FUCKING ASSESSMENT OF MY DRIVING!!! (mini woot)!
and disapointed with myself. but that goes without saying.
The second thing I learnt is the importance of frienships.
A VERY BIG THANK-YOU TO J2 who took time out of her day today to listen to me cry like a bitch and whinge and sook and all those other things that one rarely admits to doing.
J2, very truely I tell you, I understand how busy you are and the sacrifices you made. If I could find the words to express my gratitude, believe you me, I would be using them already, so lets just leave it at THANKS!
If EVER I can repay you, then please, do not hesitate to call upon me.
till next time
J1