UPDATE!
so i'm usually too tired to post, but tonight im thinkin if i go to bed a little later then 10 it'll be ok.
i feel like summer has just flown by...its already august and im still not fully prepared for september. all i know is that im going back to hammy, i can no longer live at home. hopefully this will be my last summer here. kinda weird that im the youngest of my fam, but the first one that wants to offically move out. im a little scared for sept. i've tottally changed my life around, well i finally have a plan for what i want to do with my life, and something to look forward to. its exciting that i can see my future ahead of me, but im still really really freaked out at the same time. im also kinda mad at myself for wasting 2 years...but hey you gotta try something out to figure out that its not the right thing for u.
i had my first fight with nelson...well more like the first time i've ever been pissed with him and yelled. it was bound to happen at one point or another, and lucky for him im a sucker and couldnt stay mad. now im walking around with this guilt of being a shitty girlfriend and causing a scene. grrr. other than my freak out, things have been really good with him, but im gettin really sick of the driving back and forth, its just so tiring. i cant wait to get back to being able to see him everyday and not spending all my money on gas!!
work is drivnig me nuts. we had the maxim tournament on monday, i worked for 14 hours and got caught in a crazy end of the world rain wind and hail storm... and i saw too many naked men, very unattractive naked men.. running and jumping around..honestly, im scarred for life. The only good thing i can say about work lately is that i met carlton banks from fresh prince and j.peterson from seinfield, those guys i consider top class celebrity.
another round of bad luck is hitting ppl all around me... just been making me think about things lately. kinda been freaked out, and in crazy moods. i keep gettin asked whats wrong and whats going on, but seriously theres nothing wrong, im just weird lately.
i feel like i had so much more to write about, but i dont really feel like writing anymore... bed is calling me.
i feel like summer has just flown by...its already august and im still not fully prepared for september. all i know is that im going back to hammy, i can no longer live at home. hopefully this will be my last summer here. kinda weird that im the youngest of my fam, but the first one that wants to offically move out. im a little scared for sept. i've tottally changed my life around, well i finally have a plan for what i want to do with my life, and something to look forward to. its exciting that i can see my future ahead of me, but im still really really freaked out at the same time. im also kinda mad at myself for wasting 2 years...but hey you gotta try something out to figure out that its not the right thing for u.
i had my first fight with nelson...well more like the first time i've ever been pissed with him and yelled. it was bound to happen at one point or another, and lucky for him im a sucker and couldnt stay mad. now im walking around with this guilt of being a shitty girlfriend and causing a scene. grrr. other than my freak out, things have been really good with him, but im gettin really sick of the driving back and forth, its just so tiring. i cant wait to get back to being able to see him everyday and not spending all my money on gas!!
work is drivnig me nuts. we had the maxim tournament on monday, i worked for 14 hours and got caught in a crazy end of the world rain wind and hail storm... and i saw too many naked men, very unattractive naked men.. running and jumping around..honestly, im scarred for life. The only good thing i can say about work lately is that i met carlton banks from fresh prince and j.peterson from seinfield, those guys i consider top class celebrity.
another round of bad luck is hitting ppl all around me... just been making me think about things lately. kinda been freaked out, and in crazy moods. i keep gettin asked whats wrong and whats going on, but seriously theres nothing wrong, im just weird lately.
i feel like i had so much more to write about, but i dont really feel like writing anymore... bed is calling me.