Realizations, decisions, etc.
I had a great birthday this year. This only happened after I gave up completely on any birthday hopes or expectations.
My recent realizations:
I'm not a physically attractive person for the most part, and I'm not really going to win anybody over with my super weird personality. So, I give up on men. (no! This does not mean I'm switching teams, I'm walking away from the whole situation). All it does is go terribly wrong every time I start to get involved or invested. So...check, one more area of my life that I don't have to worry about.
I AM going to worry about being the best damn violinist and musician I can. I'll take the live music capital by storm. I may not be an attractive person offstage, but I figured out this week that I can impress when on a stage. Between playing guitar and singing and the violin, I've got at least the start of something pretty damn good.
I'll keep y'all posted on how the new direction goes. I'm excited.
My recent realizations:
I'm not a physically attractive person for the most part, and I'm not really going to win anybody over with my super weird personality. So, I give up on men. (no! This does not mean I'm switching teams, I'm walking away from the whole situation). All it does is go terribly wrong every time I start to get involved or invested. So...check, one more area of my life that I don't have to worry about.
I AM going to worry about being the best damn violinist and musician I can. I'll take the live music capital by storm. I may not be an attractive person offstage, but I figured out this week that I can impress when on a stage. Between playing guitar and singing and the violin, I've got at least the start of something pretty damn good.
I'll keep y'all posted on how the new direction goes. I'm excited.