Making babies is harder than I thought
I've been changing my eating habits, not drinking (not that I did much anyway), have quit smoking (still a fierce daily struggle), have been really good about taking my prenatal vitamins *every* day and am trying to learn all I can about pregnancy and what I should be doing before we get there. I've been ignoring this so far, but as of today, I have quit my other vice. My longtime loving relationship with caffeine. This might be harder than cigarettes. My office is where everyone comes to get coffee.
I don't know how I will ever make it through the day without some form of caffeine. I usually down two cups of coffee before Monday night meetings just to stay awake long enough. Sometimes when we go really late and I feel my concentration slipping, I wonder if I shouldn't have had one more. I get really cranky, irritated and can't focus on anything, right about the time when everyone else is just livening up and are ready to party.
It's really tough being a rise-with-the-sun (or tiniest speck of light) person in a community of party-all-nighters. Caffeine has always been there for me. While everyone else is drinking alcohol, I'm loading up on cokes/coffee just to stay vertical and somewhat awake. Now I have to cut that out too? What's next?
Damnit, I need some fucking coffee. And I want a fucking cigarette. Can't I have just a little bit? This is definitely harder than I thought it would be, but I'm determined to do the right things. Sigh. I'm just really, really, really tired and don't know if I have the energy for any of it.
*yawn*
And why don't guys have to do any of this? *grumble*
I don't know how I will ever make it through the day without some form of caffeine. I usually down two cups of coffee before Monday night meetings just to stay awake long enough. Sometimes when we go really late and I feel my concentration slipping, I wonder if I shouldn't have had one more. I get really cranky, irritated and can't focus on anything, right about the time when everyone else is just livening up and are ready to party.
It's really tough being a rise-with-the-sun (or tiniest speck of light) person in a community of party-all-nighters. Caffeine has always been there for me. While everyone else is drinking alcohol, I'm loading up on cokes/coffee just to stay vertical and somewhat awake. Now I have to cut that out too? What's next?
Damnit, I need some fucking coffee. And I want a fucking cigarette. Can't I have just a little bit? This is definitely harder than I thought it would be, but I'm determined to do the right things. Sigh. I'm just really, really, really tired and don't know if I have the energy for any of it.
*yawn*
And why don't guys have to do any of this? *grumble*