So what gives you the right to question me if you don’t know me? You read a few journal pages and assume you’ve got me or us all figured out do ya? You’re life is fucked up and what… you need to pass your misery along to everyone around you? You realize that makes you the sad case here don’t you?
You’ve been hurt before haven’t you? Do you honestly believe that we were put here with only enough love to share with one person? More then likely the problem is that you’ve never experience true love yourself or even worse yet… your true love did not return the love you felt for them. From what I see that probably has to do with your fabulous fuckin personality.
So now you question others and then you wonder why it is you can’t find love… it’s because you don’t believe… because if you believed you wouldn’t question others when they find it.
I would’ve never thought ever that I’d have to defend love or defend my feelings. These are not things that can be controlled. And if you need to control it then it’s not really love is it? You can’t pick the person you fall in love with. It’s a feelin, a bond an undeniable connection. But nooooo… seems you’re perfect and control who you love and who loves you… dontcha? Fuckin lonely aren’t ya?
Ya know what brought that on don’t ya? BIG time fuckin jealousy. Was that not the most incredible exchange of emotions on Valentine’s Day between Lolli and I? Damn!!! I’m still all fuckin tingly from it.
Phone call of the day : This girl wanted to know how much time she had left to payoff her car loan so I told her 18 months and she says to me “The dealer told me I only had a year and a half left.”
Had a great voice chat with Beans last night. I came clean about some things I should have come clean about a long time ago and it lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. Not sure why she’s still around but I’m not going to argue it.
I’m off from work today and it’s the wife’s B-Day so at some point during the day I’m gonna have to get my lazy ass out and but some decorations for when she comes home.
For V-Day we went out for dinner and had this multi-course meal. I had Brushetta w/shrip as my appetizer, Caesar Salad and my entrée was Tilapia sauteed in a white wine sauce. Finally got the cappuccino I’ve been craving for months to go along with my desert and champagne. Incredible food… we went to this place for dinner last V-Day too and a few times in between.
I take both of my Valentine’s… my wife and 7 year old daughter. It was pretty fuckin funny when the owner cae out to see who order the mussels with the macaroni and cheese. My daughter is like me with clams and shrimp and shit like that… she loves em. We go to this place where we get buckets of all you can eat clams and she eats like two buckets full.
Guess who I saw today?…
Yep yep on cam chat with the disappearin Vivid… she’s there POOF… she’s gone POOF. First time chat in liiiiiike forever… Keeps sendin me new pics for the countdown this year… thinks just cause she was on it last year that she’s on it this year. Bahahahaha
I took some new pics of myself today… I never realized how out of focus I am…
See what I mean? Do people really see me like that? You would think after all these years someone would have said something to me so I could see what I could do about getting myself focused. Doesn’t it kinda remind ya of the Bigfoot pic? There are a few other new pics in my gallery if you’re interested. I'd put up an ass pic but now that I've got real life friends I need to be careful :)
Opps it’s workin again…
#76 of 100… Piper Perabo
First saw her in Coyote Ugly and if not for Maria Bello I probably wouldn’t have been able to take my eyes off of her.
Blah Blah Blah… Oh lolli I hate those nights… You get one and I’m sad then I get one and I’m sad… I hate cryin but even more I hate to think I’ve made you cry. The worst part is there’s no make up sex. :o( We always land on our feet though. The bad part of never holdin anything back and not being afraid to share feelings is that nights like that will happen… the good part is we can fix anything we want to although it seems some of these fixes take time but if this is not fixed soon I’m going to have to kick your ass.
I’ve rambled enough… this is probably all over the place since it was written over like 3 days.
Ohhhhhh and I wanna say Congrats to Bloo who got engaged last weekend while away with the other man. Nice fuckin ring!!! I’m gonna steal it. :P
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