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OK, so I managed to avoid updating this for more than a month, so I guess I'll finally talk about it.
A.Lo committed suicide on May 30th. So there it is. Um, I've been dealing, I suppose. Doing that whole "I'm a terrible person and it's all my fault" thing. Basically I've been pretty depressed, alternating with pissed off. At him, and the rest of the shitty rock we call Earth. I have trouble being mad at him though, just cause he was such a damn good person, y'know? I'm a little jealous, I suppose. I mean, it seems like it would be great to just, make the terrible parts of life stop, but I've never had the will to stop life entirely. So. But I am still angry sometimes, just cause it doesn't seem fair that his broken heart left us to pick up the pieces of ours. :-\
I really don't feel like talking about anything else right now. Other than being without Aaron, life's alright.
A.Lo committed suicide on May 30th. So there it is. Um, I've been dealing, I suppose. Doing that whole "I'm a terrible person and it's all my fault" thing. Basically I've been pretty depressed, alternating with pissed off. At him, and the rest of the shitty rock we call Earth. I have trouble being mad at him though, just cause he was such a damn good person, y'know? I'm a little jealous, I suppose. I mean, it seems like it would be great to just, make the terrible parts of life stop, but I've never had the will to stop life entirely. So. But I am still angry sometimes, just cause it doesn't seem fair that his broken heart left us to pick up the pieces of ours. :-\
I really don't feel like talking about anything else right now. Other than being without Aaron, life's alright.