Jul 16, 2006 12:21
im sick as a dog. the doctor gave me a bunch of medicine, and im feeling alot better today than yesterday. alot going on in my life. im busy all the time. i wish i could hang out late like i used to but with work so early every mornning i don't get to, plus with being sick i have realized that even staying up past ten is a bad idea just cause it leaves my immune system so low(hence how i got so sick).
my brother Jeremy is back home in 4 days!!! im so excited to see him, ive missed him alot, hes been gone for seven months. he is graduating at the top of his class, everything that he has done for the army has been his best, and it shows in the amount of awards hes gotten only barely finishing his training. God has blessed my brother, and i believe my brother has given his all at what he's doing because he's doing it for God. Then after being home two weeks my brother will leave for Kentucky for his duties there in special ops. i am definitely happy that hes not going to Korea anymore especially with all that's going on over there. pray for my other brother Jonathan who's been fighting that morongo valley fire for quite some time now. My family and I havent heard from him in several days now but we know that he's in God's hands.
i Leave for Wales august 6th, i can't wait, but im definitely a little nervous because ive never flown overseas before, but i know everything will work out for His glory. i just need to keep praying for the trip and the work that God is going to do over there. i gotta keep practicing skateboarding too, cause there's a huge skate competition that we're throwing and i kind of want to use it as a witnessing opportunity. It has been neat to watch God provide the money for this trip financially, but at the same time, His timing sometimes worries me, but i guess it leaves my clinging, and forces me to put my trust in Him. But for me, sometimes i need to be pushed in the right direction, so His timing is best. im not even worried about the rest of the money.
One thing ive noticed about money and it pisses me off.....haha.....is that the more more you have- the more comfortable you get with that amount and it makes it harder to give up certain things. But when you have less money it makes it much easier to say "im content if i'm poor". and I want to always be able to say that. Because i want to rely on Him no matter whether i have a little money in the bank or none. But at the same time, i want to be in a place where i have little, but feel like i have so much. I want to be blessed that way- not financially, cause what blessing is it if it only leaves you craving more? there's no satisfaction. I just always want to be thankful for what God has given me, and i know he'll bless me for that, He is always faithful to meet all of our needs. birds aren't worrying whether God will take care of them, but yet we worry, and God loves us far more than the birds.
Stacie has been a major blessing in my life. It means so much to me that we can pray together.
the other night we went to the macaroni grill. o my goodness. that place is bomb. we got to color on the table, and the waiter sang us a song in italian. haha.
im at crossroads in my life, where i have so many options so many choices, and I just want to choose the way that God wants me to go. so i pray that he opens the right doors and shuts the wrong doors, and quickly...hehe....cause i feel like im in a hurry, but really, i shouldn't be, because He's got the plans to prosper me just waiting to unfold them in His timing.