today.
I suppose today was the official end(closure) to this bullshit between sh and I. I'm so bitter right now and I really have no one to talk to, but i'm more pleased with going "solo" on this then anything. I never felt the way I have about a girl before and she claims breaking up with me is doing me a favor? What the fuck is that? That is the most ignorant thing i've ever heard someone say to me after they break my heart then choose to ignore me after I make 2 attempts at having a friendship. I said at the beginning of the bullshit that I can't be friends with her. However it took 2 days for me to realize thats fucking stupid and I let her know I miss her and I regret saying that and that I was sorry. You would think the person would be like alright well if they think that then being friends is/will happen if we work at it. Well no, couldn't take the time to talk to me, hence her side not working. So I was like alright well if she wont IM me or whatever, then maybe I should again, on a saturday night I randomaly texted her and asked her whats up what she was doing and whatever else, and she was super bored, had nothing to do, so I said lets hang out. We went to england(inside joke), I was hoping that maybe, somehow that would make her realize I still want to be friends even after I TOLD her, nope she couldn't talk to me even after that. Then she gets fucking pissed off when I don't acknowledge her in school? Fuck that. That's such bullshit. She doesn't understand how many people despise her because of the way 1) She treated me 2) her obliviousness to her friends 3) the way she acts toard her "best" friends. Now that i'm officially fucking sick of her shit, she makes attempts... fuck that. People told me that she wasn't worth my time and that I can do so much better, but she was all the better I wanted to do, and I gave all I could and I did all I could, and it wasn't enough. You can sit there, advertise your "FUCK IT and FUCK YOUS" all you want, but in time you will realize who is fucked. You will when you have no one, it's starting today, this sunday, you lost me and you're losing two other best friends, that should tell you you're not doing something. Whatever, have a good one, I assume you don't read this, but if it gets to you, I do wish you some luck at whatever you do and have a good one and thanks for fucking me over like you did, it was greatly appreciated. It's done.