...confusion....
So dave came last night had a great time with him and alex we went to a few bars got drunk and came back to my place started to watch "how high" but I know i passed out not very far into it. as for dave i dont know...
I loved seeing dave but brought back alot of memorys that involved tricia and made me miss her alot. i want to be over her but i just can seem to do it i still love her alot and care for her deaply why i dont know.....
its driveing me crazy i sware to god it is... alot of bad things happened between her and i and still there are huges parts of me that want to be with her... why is this???
im scared to trust anyone with my heart everagain i cant help but wonder if they will break it too.
i sit and i scream and cry and i wonder how my life changed this much. im happy here with my brother,bev and ari but i still feel a big part of me is gone and i dont know if ill ever get it back.
I loved seeing dave but brought back alot of memorys that involved tricia and made me miss her alot. i want to be over her but i just can seem to do it i still love her alot and care for her deaply why i dont know.....
its driveing me crazy i sware to god it is... alot of bad things happened between her and i and still there are huges parts of me that want to be with her... why is this???
im scared to trust anyone with my heart everagain i cant help but wonder if they will break it too.
i sit and i scream and cry and i wonder how my life changed this much. im happy here with my brother,bev and ari but i still feel a big part of me is gone and i dont know if ill ever get it back.