Its My Birthday and I'll Cry if I Want To...
And so it is...yet another year to add on to my life. Don't get me wrong, I'm very thankful for it, but I just can't really concentrate on anything good right now. Its been a while since my last update, so I thought that a post on my birthday would be good.
After getting back from Virginia visiting my cousin Kirk, these past few weeks have been pretty rough. School has been a pain as always, and my emotions are running high and running/ruining my life. What else is new eh? Sorry I just got back from Toronto and I tend to say 'eh' a lot when I come back from there. Toronto was fun, I got to meet a 'long lost cousin' who oddly enough looks JUST LIKE Kirk. My favorite uncle died a year ago sunday and this weekend was a family get together to celebrate/mourn. Saturday we had prayer and a big dinner. Sunday we went to the cemetary for a while and my aunt led a rosary prayer. We didn't get to eat at Swiss Chalet like I wanted to cuz of all the food at the house, but whatever.
With all this crap goin on, I'm not even focused on my birthday which should be a happy time for anyone. I can't stand living this way. I turn twenty today and I still think like a 15 year old in high school that can't get over anything. I'm sorry if any of this made you sad...I didn't mean for it to be...I swear.
Thank you and good night.
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And its been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And its been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I cant remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And its been awhile
Since I could say that I wasnt addicted
And it's been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do
And It's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
After getting back from Virginia visiting my cousin Kirk, these past few weeks have been pretty rough. School has been a pain as always, and my emotions are running high and running/ruining my life. What else is new eh? Sorry I just got back from Toronto and I tend to say 'eh' a lot when I come back from there. Toronto was fun, I got to meet a 'long lost cousin' who oddly enough looks JUST LIKE Kirk. My favorite uncle died a year ago sunday and this weekend was a family get together to celebrate/mourn. Saturday we had prayer and a big dinner. Sunday we went to the cemetary for a while and my aunt led a rosary prayer. We didn't get to eat at Swiss Chalet like I wanted to cuz of all the food at the house, but whatever.
With all this crap goin on, I'm not even focused on my birthday which should be a happy time for anyone. I can't stand living this way. I turn twenty today and I still think like a 15 year old in high school that can't get over anything. I'm sorry if any of this made you sad...I didn't mean for it to be...I swear.
Thank you and good night.
It's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And its been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And its been awhile
Since I could call you
And everything I cant remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And its been awhile
Since I could say that I wasnt addicted
And it's been awhile since I could say I loved myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up, just like I always do
And It's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day
And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste