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i dont really know why I was thinking about this. but i'll share. two entries in one day. woot.
i miss the way church retreats and camp make me feel. i feel so comfortable with being myself when i'm in those places. everybody knows the real me. and everything just seems to be put completely in perspective. even for the first week or so after these experiences i feel so...alive and happy to be me due to the time i spent with a group of people that i absolutely love. eventually that happy feeling wears off. and i'm back to wondering if there even is a god. and if there is..why does he make shit happen so much? i know its not always up to him. but why doesnt he stop the bad stuff from happening?
i dont know. im just in one of those moods. i guess i'm just ready for youth group to start again. after next week, hopefully things will be put back in perspective for me. who knows.
you probably really dont care. but oh well. anyone whos ever been to camp or anything will understand how that feeling eventually wears off. and everything is just back to...blah.
later.
i miss the way church retreats and camp make me feel. i feel so comfortable with being myself when i'm in those places. everybody knows the real me. and everything just seems to be put completely in perspective. even for the first week or so after these experiences i feel so...alive and happy to be me due to the time i spent with a group of people that i absolutely love. eventually that happy feeling wears off. and i'm back to wondering if there even is a god. and if there is..why does he make shit happen so much? i know its not always up to him. but why doesnt he stop the bad stuff from happening?
i dont know. im just in one of those moods. i guess i'm just ready for youth group to start again. after next week, hopefully things will be put back in perspective for me. who knows.
you probably really dont care. but oh well. anyone whos ever been to camp or anything will understand how that feeling eventually wears off. and everything is just back to...blah.
later.