Serial Kids back for more...
You've missed me huh guys... :) I was sinking but now that I can breathe again lets get to the silly then serious. I'm evicting this girl whos like 7 fts tall and was in the army but super thin, now that you have the picture my story is about her kid so blank screen again... Coming out of the btrm at work while hiding from that girl, I was in the btrm for like 10 mins waiting till she left I hear my name and fling open the door and scream...me 5' 4" doesnt see the 2' kid staring up at me till I look down but he's making a face. Him being that chicks son would have done it but I almost fell over he scared the holly hell out of me so much so I yelled OH CRAP and it echoed a little in the office.
Today at school I was in the btrm again. Hey.. after lunch again I drink far too much water. I'm doing a quick french braid super concentrated in thought in complete silence w/ no one in the bthrm and I hear a really loud hissing noise. I yelped and poked myself in the eye. Only to see it was one of those smell dipensers. Could they seriously think of silencing those? I almost took my eye out.
Who would have known when your form of a parent(s) sent you out into the world with that whole bird flies or falls bullshit speach they really werent lying but trying to give you clues with a good story or moral just telephoned into bits of meaningful words. I, since September 1st have been fullly thrusted (oh sexy) into the world of adulthood and quite frankly I am ready but willing, no.
8/30/06 Jodi my Community director left my office at the lovely Point Natomas and that day was the last of my summer, sanity and gross immaturity. This summer I and probably everyone close to me can say that I have taken a blow of the real world. Not that I dont live in it on a daily basis but with major decisions and requirements have led me to see that the nature of man is rather self. Spinning off of some bad experiences isnt what made my conclusion so clear but really being in quick rash situations where ones own ethics alone are the only guidance has shown me sides of people I couldnt have predicted in my wildest dreams.
My eyes sparkle still but with a knowledge that though intense feelings of self first are an initial reaction to any situation (survival of the fittest aka save your ass first) there is a hope that in ones life there was exposure to just one element of selflessness (sp?) whether that be through another, literature, film, fiction or non-fiction. If maybe just once it really hit a person deep enough it would never leave. I like to think that the ones I know in my heart are good do so not for their own benifit but because it makes them truly happy.
With my world running at warp speed I've watch my trust fall and felt deciet then wanted to strangle her and him next, lust, worthlessness, catholic failure (planned parenthood), asthma (the cigs), drunken happiness (the plastic cup), pride (my family), abandonment II (mommy), forgiveness III, friendship true and cosmetic, inspiration (lani), and leadership (of course work). Looking back at anytime in the last couple of months feeling a low of a new kind could have brought me down but as I see it my layers are getting stronger. Game plan? Leave Point Natomas gracefully as one can to find myself at The Melting Pot and volunteering at any medical facility, GRADUATE goddammit!, solve my crappy car dilemma so I can see my family when I damn well please not when that thing wants to run well, and finally have faith in my decisions then execute them. Running my property for the last month gave me insight as to how I can be immature but inside have the potential of a real adult, seeing that I know having faith in myself and 100% knowing who I am and what I stand for is what will get me thru the rest of the levels.
Today at school I was in the btrm again. Hey.. after lunch again I drink far too much water. I'm doing a quick french braid super concentrated in thought in complete silence w/ no one in the bthrm and I hear a really loud hissing noise. I yelped and poked myself in the eye. Only to see it was one of those smell dipensers. Could they seriously think of silencing those? I almost took my eye out.
Who would have known when your form of a parent(s) sent you out into the world with that whole bird flies or falls bullshit speach they really werent lying but trying to give you clues with a good story or moral just telephoned into bits of meaningful words. I, since September 1st have been fullly thrusted (oh sexy) into the world of adulthood and quite frankly I am ready but willing, no.
8/30/06 Jodi my Community director left my office at the lovely Point Natomas and that day was the last of my summer, sanity and gross immaturity. This summer I and probably everyone close to me can say that I have taken a blow of the real world. Not that I dont live in it on a daily basis but with major decisions and requirements have led me to see that the nature of man is rather self. Spinning off of some bad experiences isnt what made my conclusion so clear but really being in quick rash situations where ones own ethics alone are the only guidance has shown me sides of people I couldnt have predicted in my wildest dreams.
My eyes sparkle still but with a knowledge that though intense feelings of self first are an initial reaction to any situation (survival of the fittest aka save your ass first) there is a hope that in ones life there was exposure to just one element of selflessness (sp?) whether that be through another, literature, film, fiction or non-fiction. If maybe just once it really hit a person deep enough it would never leave. I like to think that the ones I know in my heart are good do so not for their own benifit but because it makes them truly happy.
With my world running at warp speed I've watch my trust fall and felt deciet then wanted to strangle her and him next, lust, worthlessness, catholic failure (planned parenthood), asthma (the cigs), drunken happiness (the plastic cup), pride (my family), abandonment II (mommy), forgiveness III, friendship true and cosmetic, inspiration (lani), and leadership (of course work). Looking back at anytime in the last couple of months feeling a low of a new kind could have brought me down but as I see it my layers are getting stronger. Game plan? Leave Point Natomas gracefully as one can to find myself at The Melting Pot and volunteering at any medical facility, GRADUATE goddammit!, solve my crappy car dilemma so I can see my family when I damn well please not when that thing wants to run well, and finally have faith in my decisions then execute them. Running my property for the last month gave me insight as to how I can be immature but inside have the potential of a real adult, seeing that I know having faith in myself and 100% knowing who I am and what I stand for is what will get me thru the rest of the levels.