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two fanmixes in one week. very interesting. but this one was coming for a long time now. those who tend to follow me on my the mortal instruments comm, probably know my sick and twisted fixation about the potential relationship between jace and izzy. if you don't know what the hell am i talking about then, oh well just enjoy the music. it's a bit of bitter tunes, with the main subject 'why are you leaving me you motherfucker'
and also a small surprise i've tried to match and paste some small parts of my mini tiny izzy/jace fanfic. and i know that the grammar and tenses are wrong. and that i really suck. but you know, it's my first this kind of thing in english so please don't bash me too much.
that's all. enjoy. free from spoilers, i guess.
01.♪♪♪ Megan McCauley - Wonder
And I can't help but wonder what it is you do | You help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth | You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world | And somehow, when I'm with you, I never get burned
once upon a time, she was the only girl in his life. She was his sun, his air, his everything. 'We will run away' he promised her, between kisses 'Somewhere where no one will find us. We will be together Izzy, we will be free.'
Oh how much she wanted to believe in that, how much she did believe in that. But that was long time ago, and right now she's not sure if any of that really happened.
02.♪♪♪ Alison Krauss & Union Station - I'm Gone
I tried to make you love me | How I could I be so blind | To think I'd be the one to change your mind
'Why am I not good enough for you?' she whispers and he rises his hand to her cheek and wipes off tears. She was trying to find comfort in his touch but somehow everything seemed to her so cold and detached.
03.♪♪♪ Stereophonics - Since I Told You It's Over
Black and blue from the wind and the rain | Said I'm sorry for the lies and the pain | I never ever meant to make you cry | If I could take you back, you know, I would | I wanna burn up and die
'I'm not good enough for you Izzy. You deserve so much more. You deserve someone who will love you.' She moves away from him, so suddenly and so quickly, that for a second she feels dizzy, like she was falling down. After all she was falling apart.
04.♪♪♪ Elisa - Stay
You did not dare say a single word | I did not dare ask for something more | I’ve kept my questions secret deep inside | But I wish I could have let you know about | A time when I would have said | Wait, and please stay | Did you mean to push me away?
She wanted to ask him if he didn't love her, then why did he lie? Why he used to tell her those idiotic 'i love yous' over and over again, why did he tell her that they belong together. But she doesn't ask, because she's afraid of answer she might get and he looks so worried, so wonderfully caring that it only makes it worse
05.♪♪♪ Lily Allen - Absolutely Nothing
You've seen me cry too many times | But not this time | No not this time | I don't need you to help me through | I'll be just fine
This was their ending. Right here, right now, this second, he was telling her he was giving her up forever. It should hurt more, she thought, but I'm so damn tired. She just wanted to go, to be left alone, to be able to cry so hard that her tears would run red with blood. But not here. Not now.
06.♪♪♪ Mozella - Light Years Away
It's how you wanted it to be | It's like you played a joke on me | And I lost a friend | In the end | And I think that I cried for days | But now that seems light years away | And I'm never going back | To who I was
She fought off the ache in her soul and the pounding in her head. She then did something she hadn’t done since she was five. She cried herself to sleep.
and also a small surprise i've tried to match and paste some small parts of my mini tiny izzy/jace fanfic. and i know that the grammar and tenses are wrong. and that i really suck. but you know, it's my first this kind of thing in english so please don't bash me too much.
that's all. enjoy. free from spoilers, i guess.
01.♪♪♪ Megan McCauley - Wonder
And I can't help but wonder what it is you do | You help heal the pain, and the thoughts of the truth | You're a question to the universe, a wonder to the world | And somehow, when I'm with you, I never get burned
once upon a time, she was the only girl in his life. She was his sun, his air, his everything. 'We will run away' he promised her, between kisses 'Somewhere where no one will find us. We will be together Izzy, we will be free.'
Oh how much she wanted to believe in that, how much she did believe in that. But that was long time ago, and right now she's not sure if any of that really happened.
02.♪♪♪ Alison Krauss & Union Station - I'm Gone
I tried to make you love me | How I could I be so blind | To think I'd be the one to change your mind
'Why am I not good enough for you?' she whispers and he rises his hand to her cheek and wipes off tears. She was trying to find comfort in his touch but somehow everything seemed to her so cold and detached.
03.♪♪♪ Stereophonics - Since I Told You It's Over
Black and blue from the wind and the rain | Said I'm sorry for the lies and the pain | I never ever meant to make you cry | If I could take you back, you know, I would | I wanna burn up and die
'I'm not good enough for you Izzy. You deserve so much more. You deserve someone who will love you.' She moves away from him, so suddenly and so quickly, that for a second she feels dizzy, like she was falling down. After all she was falling apart.
04.♪♪♪ Elisa - Stay
You did not dare say a single word | I did not dare ask for something more | I’ve kept my questions secret deep inside | But I wish I could have let you know about | A time when I would have said | Wait, and please stay | Did you mean to push me away?
She wanted to ask him if he didn't love her, then why did he lie? Why he used to tell her those idiotic 'i love yous' over and over again, why did he tell her that they belong together. But she doesn't ask, because she's afraid of answer she might get and he looks so worried, so wonderfully caring that it only makes it worse
05.♪♪♪ Lily Allen - Absolutely Nothing
You've seen me cry too many times | But not this time | No not this time | I don't need you to help me through | I'll be just fine
This was their ending. Right here, right now, this second, he was telling her he was giving her up forever. It should hurt more, she thought, but I'm so damn tired. She just wanted to go, to be left alone, to be able to cry so hard that her tears would run red with blood. But not here. Not now.
06.♪♪♪ Mozella - Light Years Away
It's how you wanted it to be | It's like you played a joke on me | And I lost a friend | In the end | And I think that I cried for days | But now that seems light years away | And I'm never going back | To who I was
She fought off the ache in her soul and the pounding in her head. She then did something she hadn’t done since she was five. She cried herself to sleep.