no update this week...
tho' there was a session...and certain changes have been made to the way I live my life, my priorities and how I operate...I don't feel ready to write about them yet, because I don't know how I feel about them.
I am, however very grateful for my amazing friends, and the people who are offering huge amounts of support during this time, I am almost under 100kg...through little more than sheer hard work and dietary changes. No drugs, no gym programme, no incentive other than - I want this and of course...lots of walking (and a possible water aerobics buddy...)
The weekend is full...Next week is pretty much full too. I have things that I am really looking forward to and things that I HAVE to do but am not sure if I want to.
Some plans have fallen through, but that hasn't been my doing, so I am comfortable with it. There was only one instance where I couldn't answer the phone in the past week, and that was due to paranoia about motives. I built up enough courage to respond to the phone call and a rescheduling was done. I think I am ok with it all now.
I read a wonderful book, the basic premise of which was "you get back what you give out" and I am starting to feel proud of the amazing people who are in my inner circle of friends if they are a reflection of me, then I mustn't be all that bad :) because they are wonderful, amazing people!!!
I am, however very grateful for my amazing friends, and the people who are offering huge amounts of support during this time, I am almost under 100kg...through little more than sheer hard work and dietary changes. No drugs, no gym programme, no incentive other than - I want this and of course...lots of walking (and a possible water aerobics buddy...)
The weekend is full...Next week is pretty much full too. I have things that I am really looking forward to and things that I HAVE to do but am not sure if I want to.
Some plans have fallen through, but that hasn't been my doing, so I am comfortable with it. There was only one instance where I couldn't answer the phone in the past week, and that was due to paranoia about motives. I built up enough courage to respond to the phone call and a rescheduling was done. I think I am ok with it all now.
I read a wonderful book, the basic premise of which was "you get back what you give out" and I am starting to feel proud of the amazing people who are in my inner circle of friends if they are a reflection of me, then I mustn't be all that bad :) because they are wonderful, amazing people!!!