Letting go of her, hoping to let her heal
Robin broke my heart. Into SO many pieces I couldn't count them if I had too. But last night I finally got to LET go. I don't know at what point...but I did. Last night I went to get new tattoos. I asked her to go with me. I wanted to see her. I needed to. She showed up and all I could think was "she looks absolutly misrible". And I know I'm a small part of that. And I don't want to be. I love her to death. I do want to be with her. But I won't be second to someone else whos intruiging. I'm sorry. I'm better than that. And she knew that. Thats why she let go. But shes misrible. And I saw her and my heart said....you can do this, you will be okay and in the middle of my tattoo...it went away. I could let her go. Let her worry about her and not me. It hurts to do but its a huge relief to know that I did it. I finally let go, and now I can see if she's my boomerang. It's like the pain of the tattoo took my pain away.
So Robin if you ever see this.....I've let go of us. I'll remember us so fondly and perhaps one day get to travel that road once more. But you're free of me, and my pain, please live for your life and your heart, find what you need out of this life. I'll be here for you through anything. But I will not be second to someone else. I deserve more than that. You deserve to be happy, and I do hope you are. I love you, and I always will. You have my heart, in all its pieces, but you no longer control it. You don't have my dreams, you don't have control to pull those strings and I hope I don't have that on you. I must let go. I must step away and let you live without me, to know if you'll ever want to live with me in your heart again. Good bye.
So Robin if you ever see this.....I've let go of us. I'll remember us so fondly and perhaps one day get to travel that road once more. But you're free of me, and my pain, please live for your life and your heart, find what you need out of this life. I'll be here for you through anything. But I will not be second to someone else. I deserve more than that. You deserve to be happy, and I do hope you are. I love you, and I always will. You have my heart, in all its pieces, but you no longer control it. You don't have my dreams, you don't have control to pull those strings and I hope I don't have that on you. I must let go. I must step away and let you live without me, to know if you'll ever want to live with me in your heart again. Good bye.