thoughts after what i thought was an emergency
you don't realize how much you love someone until something bad happens and you start crying 'cause you can't find him in the stands. then, when you finally see him and you stop crying, you just want to hug him and he turns around and talks to his friends. i may be a "worry wart" but it doesn't matter. yesterday proved how much more i feel than him.
i thought he was wrong. but i guess he was right.
it hurts so much that these things just keep repeating themselves. sadly, lamely, i just say "ok" and they are forgotten. but what about me? what about ME? don't i have the right to stay angry and be mad and not accept all of this? don't i have the power to just give up and say, well, it was a good 7 months. no. absolutely not. that to me is the lamest part of all.
i just can't do that. i just can't.
i sit on my bed after waking up thinking about life. it's kinda bad that i wake up in these moods. i guess it's better than other alternatives. and now i will go eat something and get ready for school and wonder if my new wish will come true.
i thought he was wrong. but i guess he was right.
it hurts so much that these things just keep repeating themselves. sadly, lamely, i just say "ok" and they are forgotten. but what about me? what about ME? don't i have the right to stay angry and be mad and not accept all of this? don't i have the power to just give up and say, well, it was a good 7 months. no. absolutely not. that to me is the lamest part of all.
i just can't do that. i just can't.
i sit on my bed after waking up thinking about life. it's kinda bad that i wake up in these moods. i guess it's better than other alternatives. and now i will go eat something and get ready for school and wonder if my new wish will come true.