the forever girl bestfriend
Ano ba naman klaseng tadhana yung meron sakin? That I always fall for guys who sees me as a girl best friend.
Look, it's not really a big deal cause I do value friendship and appreciate the fact that if I remain friends with past flings, I'm happy pa rin.
Love is indeed a freaking complicated thing - it enters you and can either break or make you. Mess you up yet will right after fix you.
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Let's all call them Besties!
So, it started with this guy a.k.a Bestie #1 --- I became super friends in highschool. He was the campus crush and sa kanyang dreamy stance, girls are like so gaga over him. His the boy-next-door-shy-type kaya mas lalo habulin. Pero despite sa commotion when he turns a corridor, for me, his plain NORMAL. I know his bloopers (tatawa kayo to the max if nakwento ko), his plans sa buhay and almost we join same clubs; hindi sya sasali if wala din ako (usually..) and syempre as a supportive friend, andun din ako kahit OP na ako sa lahat, kasi nga attention was always on him. Though, he always drags me into that crowd kasi nga kasalanan nya in the first place bakit andun ako.
It's a good thing that I'm an introvert kasi I'm good without people. LOL!
Si #1 had always been my confidant and first friend to arrive when I need one. He never misses to greet me on my birthday or remind me of get-togethers kasi buy-one-take-one kami pareho. If wala ako, di sya pupunta and vice versa. Pero, here comes si girl crushie nya, who is a dance diva sa school and when he finally got the chance to tell her how he feels, the girl rejected him for a different guy. Gawd, my heart was crushed together with this pero kaloka, meron talaga 5% na natuwa ako that he got rejected. Hahahahahaha
Until now friendship pa rin kami ni #1 kahit na iba na yung trip nya sa buhay. We meet up occassionally and do catch-ups kaso dahil magkaiba na kami ng career. We rarely see each other but when we do, I know my heart still skips a beat for him and won't deny na I still find his gaze tantalizing. Then again, wala po syang alam sa nararamdaman ko since highschool. So hush po.
Pero I think he knows how I feel towards him. Sino ba naman di ma-iinlove sa isang gwapo, responsible, sensitive, God-fearing at napaka-caring na tao. Kaya beshie, di mo ako masisi if I say, I love you Papa B! hahahahahahahahaha
Now
Bestie #2, met him kasi seatmates kami during my training sa BPO job. His the casual makulit and ka-jive kausap na guy, meron kami sariling bubble sa likod ng training room. Like we super click talaga and all. Magkasama sa lahat ng lunch at lakad after work (no drinking sessions). Akala ko talaga may pag-asa na kami kasi parang everything is just so smooth pag magkasama kami. But, his the chick-boy type kahit chubby. A man of his word siya and girls are just swooning over him -- mas nadagdagan yung fansclub niya when he started working out and finally got that fit body. Pero despite his "babaero personality" meron sya nakilalang newbie who changed his life (until now).
Crazy thing is, I befriended the newbie, uhm accidentally.. hahaha.. talk about destiny! Yeah! Magkasunod kami ni Chinita nagprocess nung APE (Annual Physical Exam) and because the lines are so long, we talked to each other. Kumuha ng insider info yung lola nyo (the likes, dislikes, at kung ano-ano pa). It was a good thing that Chinita likes One Direction (meron ako addict phase sa 5-boys na yan dati), so super naging click din kami. Si Chinita a girl of abundant positiveness and laughter. Kaloka, kung ako lalaki, di mahirap ma-fall sa kanya. So ayun, boto ako 100% kay Chinita and my heart decided to move on sa crush kay Bestie #2.
Salamat sa Ate ninyo na dahil sa insider info at crafting the "ligaw plans" namin, na fall din si Chinita kay Bestie #2. As in sobra! The flowers, the One Direction shirt, the mug and syempre yung first date nila. Meron slight drama during the courting stage pero naging sila naman and thankfully until now.
Let's move on to..
Bestie #3, eto yung macho gwapito na swak sa chicks at gurlaloos. Yung mga moves nya, naku overrated certified flirt talaga. Pagtinanong mo naman why his flirty, he will answer, "I'm just friendly!". Napakaraming "packing tape" (wtf in my terms) yung first impression ko sa kanya. Until he befriended me, ayun haba ng hair ni ate!
His the sweet touchy and protective type, kahit friends lang dapat kayo, aakalain ng buong barangay na "in a relationship" na status ninyo. So, eto si #3 dahil isa akong Team Lead at expert sa account namin dati, he started following me around. Tatabi sa station pag break nya, sharing his life story and all his secrets (like ang bilis, he trusted me with those innermost things).
Syempre, sa lookup ko sa Google. When a guy shares about his life, he likes you. Di nga lang na specify nung blog the guy likes you as a lover or friend. Hahahaha
Meron pa one instance na tinawagan ba naman ako sa gitna ng team party para sabihin na susunod daw sya. Nasaan ang hustisya? pa-fall eto eh... Pero dahil na read ko na yung mga moves nya alam ko naman na hanggang dyan lang yan. Friendship. At saan ba naman ako expert kundi sa friendship.
I just realized one day na, my feelings was pure infatuation. I woke up realizing, hindi na ako tinatablan when he flexes his muscle or gives me that cute smile.
So ayun, move on tayo sa kanya..
Kaloka, kaya ako single eh, kasi lahat kayo ginagawa nyo akong BESTFRIEND!
Pero enough na, I don't want to be the forever bestfriend.
Thus, I'm giving up searching for love.
I'm just gonna enjoy life as it is.
I'm gonna continue writing stories.
Play fire with fire perhaps?
Or start doing a different hobby.
Basta the most important thing is to LOVE THYSELF!