Jun 20, 2006 03:03
i think i've got this shit under control-this shit being life.
no matter what state you move to, what drug you do, how dumb you are, how much you live in the past, how much we don't hang out, how many sluts you fuck, what friends you have that aren't me, what you wear, where you go, how you spend your days off-what mistakes you've made, what mistakes you're going to make- i don't care.
i love you guys-you know who you are and i love you.
everytime you've made me literally rofl, everytime we've eaten out, every car ride to nowhere, every car ride to somewhere, everytime you've paid for me, everytime you've helped me out without even fucking knowing it.
i love knowing that i don't need to have money all the time, i don't need to know where to score the best shit, i don't need a "something to do" because when there's nothing to do-that's when you guys come in. i'd take sitting on some fags bed for 3 hours watching him play playstation and lose every 5 minutes over going to cobb ass theatre or getting drunks with people that don't give two shits about me. i'd rather get drunk in the schmidt's kitchen-and that's a fucking fact. "hanging out" is hanging out-learn the term. ie; breaking up with someone but still hanging out for another hour and still enjoying yourself- PEOPLE LIKE YOU.
i know you boys all have it, too even if you don't see it. realize it when you tell me stories about how bro and back-having you are when you come back from a show and fucking smile at yourselves. i love those stories i seriously do. so don't complain about not having friends-EVER. because you know damn well if you were in need, they sure as fuck wouldn't think twice about helping you.*******
keep believing in what you believe in, keep doing what you do because even if your friends fail you-you've got that, what you do and what you believe. there's fucking always someone that cares even when you think they don't. sometimes the worst thing can make the best impact in your life. take big steps and reap the even bigger benefits. take care of people. learn how to earn respect and when you get it, don't take it for granted. don't let people take advantage of you, stand up for yourself and fight back.
i love.
thank you so god damn motherfucking much from the bottom of my jewbag heart.
if you don't read this, that's fine-i'll probably be over at your house one day hanging out anyway.
*******FREEZETAGforLIFE: my friend, just my buddy from shows
FREEZETAGforLIFE: is like helpin me out and shit
uh duh