cynical attack of v-day as expected.
Ok. For the past 19 Valentines day my mom has always left a tiny present on the kitchen table, and i'd go downstairs and act all surprised and giddy over my present. So naturally this morning i wake up wicked excited. NOTHING. not even a card. not even a 'happy valentines day' written on a paper towel and taped the the microwave. NOTHING. So being me. and being super pissed. I called her cell phone and somewhere in the incescent ramblings of my 19 minute message i said "THANK YOU for crushing my hopes and dreams, i am now becoming a lesbian because of you i have lost all faith, i hope you have an extremely miserable day" Yeah thats right! I said it. lol So then i go off and do my dailing routine. FALLING IN THE SHOWER. Going to the bank. taking 3 advil and getting an extremely large coffee to help with my tremendous migrane. and get ready to go to BIOLOGY. fuck biology, seriously. If you know anything about me, and my history with BIOLOGY. I say FUCK BIOLOGY. yeah So im walking from ROW M in the CCRI parkling lot, which by the way, is PAST squirrel island and all the way in the boondocks of RI. and i get near the door when my lab partner is walking out telling me he cancelled class. Happy yet aggrivating. So i go home pay bills, buy FLOGGING MOLLY TICKETS. . I love flogging molly... Getting punched, kicked, and stomped in the face and being covered in beer and sweat, none of which is my own, is well worth waiting 5 agonizing days for splendid fun... maybe this time i'll actually try crowd surfing LOL. so yes then i went to see the beeeaauuutttiiifuuul Aiden, who is the highlight of my life. and then back home. Where the was a tiny red envelope waiting on the kitchen table for me. I open it and in it is a single ticket to PHANTOM OF THE OPERA. god i love my mom. Then in between hugging and thanking her she told me i was a '' miserable bitch '' and she laughed at my message. LOL. awesome. pretty awesome day right? wrong. no. not even close. We ordered Chinese for dinner, which you would think could add to the awesomeness that is today. but no it didnt. because my fortune cookie said this "YOU ARE THE GUIDING STAR TO HIS EXSISTANCE"......... yeah...... Do you smell that??? smells like BULLSHIT. I got nothing from him. Not a "good morning sunshine" not a silly txt message... nothing. and whats sad is i kinda expected it. which i guess i shouldnt have. I mean, sometimes actions speak louder than words, and if its taken him 2 years to get to this point... which is nothing? How long is too long to wait? Should i just really seriously give up. really. i've tried it before. I do. but it doesnt last long. So in return what i have learned today never have expectations. You only end up dissappointed and mad at stupid fortune cookies that ruin my happy chineeeeese food moment. ROAR.