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So I applied to Point park university. which included this essay because they wanted to see writing skills. and um i liked this one. So yeah. CCRI blows. <3 read it bitches. k, thanks.
Why is it that one day you're happy and okay with life, and then one tiny insignificant thing goes wrong and you're just counting your troubles? I guess this is true with most people not only me, that yesterday I was geeking out dancing to loud music in my underwear and today I woke up to go to school, slid on the snow, drove into a fence, and now have no intention of getting out of bed.Ever.
The thing that sucks when you're counting your troubles is that you go deep. Real deep. Like, you go back to things that happend five years ago, and think, "Why did I do that?, I bet if I didn't do that one dumb retarded act of stupidity, that right now I wouldn't be sitting here stuffing my face full of ramen noodles and Chunky Munky ice cream, unshowered in my sweats."
What if there weren't these moments of stupidity? What if I didnt grill my stomach on the George Forman? What if I didn't break up with him, what if I didn't get into three car accidents, what if I didn't do a number of other stupid things? Would I still be me? Would I still be the crazy, sometimes obnoxious, contemplative, semi-exotic, eccentric, wise me?
If I didn't have these blue moments when I just wanted to be alone and think over every upsetting thing, would I still be able to wake up tomorrow morning with a smile on my face and know that everything is going to be ok? After all, you have to hit rock bottom eventually for things to get better, you have to go through the chocolate cake to get to the creamy center of the yodles right? Of course, you have to eat a whole bunch of yodles before you start to smile again.
So if you think about it, it's necessary to be depressed. You have to. Everyone has their highs and lows, and you have to have a bad moment to realize all the great things you have going for you. Moments like these you have to tell yourself: "Yes! I hit a metal fence this morning, but, it could have happend to anyone, that is why it was called an accident, my third, but still an accident! So i'll stay in bed today, sulk, be miserable, but tomorrow im going to wake up smile and realize that mistakes happen". So "bring on the rain" or snow in my case.
Why is it that one day you're happy and okay with life, and then one tiny insignificant thing goes wrong and you're just counting your troubles? I guess this is true with most people not only me, that yesterday I was geeking out dancing to loud music in my underwear and today I woke up to go to school, slid on the snow, drove into a fence, and now have no intention of getting out of bed.Ever.
The thing that sucks when you're counting your troubles is that you go deep. Real deep. Like, you go back to things that happend five years ago, and think, "Why did I do that?, I bet if I didn't do that one dumb retarded act of stupidity, that right now I wouldn't be sitting here stuffing my face full of ramen noodles and Chunky Munky ice cream, unshowered in my sweats."
What if there weren't these moments of stupidity? What if I didnt grill my stomach on the George Forman? What if I didn't break up with him, what if I didn't get into three car accidents, what if I didn't do a number of other stupid things? Would I still be me? Would I still be the crazy, sometimes obnoxious, contemplative, semi-exotic, eccentric, wise me?
If I didn't have these blue moments when I just wanted to be alone and think over every upsetting thing, would I still be able to wake up tomorrow morning with a smile on my face and know that everything is going to be ok? After all, you have to hit rock bottom eventually for things to get better, you have to go through the chocolate cake to get to the creamy center of the yodles right? Of course, you have to eat a whole bunch of yodles before you start to smile again.
So if you think about it, it's necessary to be depressed. You have to. Everyone has their highs and lows, and you have to have a bad moment to realize all the great things you have going for you. Moments like these you have to tell yourself: "Yes! I hit a metal fence this morning, but, it could have happend to anyone, that is why it was called an accident, my third, but still an accident! So i'll stay in bed today, sulk, be miserable, but tomorrow im going to wake up smile and realize that mistakes happen". So "bring on the rain" or snow in my case.