COME ON EILEEN!
haha im fucknig watching tommy boy. so im sitting here looking through my journal archives and im reading every single entry from this past year. wow its amazing. like i miss it a lot. also i was reliving every phase and exciting thing that happened to me. getting into vt, getting over people, getting new crushes, making new friends, losing old friends, reforming and rebuilding the relationships with my family. this year has truly been an amazing one. even though i still hate myself and i know that sounds so horrible but its true and will always be. im more content with me. i hate my exterior but i dont mind the interior. i lvoe my friends. i love my family. i love my ability to set my mind to something and do it. i love how self sufficient i am. i love how i can laugh at myself (and others haha) i love how i know how to remove myself from a bad situation. growing up in the family i did and going through what i went through i learned that there is only one person in this world that i should be looking out for and thats myself. its not selfish to think that way. you need to do what makes you happy and healthy. im not saying to shit on everyone else in your life. but if something is hurting you, you need to learn to throw in the towel. you need to concentrate on yourself and how you are going to heal. i was reading good housekeeping today at the gym and it was an interview with goldie hawn and she was talknig about how every experience in your life teaches you how to heal. every misfortune teaches you how to handle stress and pick yourself up (by your own bootstraps might i add!!!) and move on. take the good and leave the bad and learn. i always sound so cliche but in reality im just trying to better me and my life.
awww i just read a lot of the entries from april. i was sooo giddy. i had such a massive crush on this kid! now im just irritated with him. who knows. like i said i wont see him ever again so thats cool. i hope when college rolls around i will appeal to someone besides homosexuals and creepy booksellers (im way too tired to tell that story now but OMG) who knows. so today glenn called me at 930 to meet him and danny for coffee while glenn got his car shampooed bc danny VOMITTED in his new car!!! hahahahaha funny shit right there. so i answer and im like okay il lbe there at 10. i went upstairs to get dressed and i pass out on my bed. whoa there i wake up at 1140 and realize i have to meet gramme at bahama breeze at 12. definitely threw some clothes on and ran out of the house. then we malled it. i spent 88 dollars at bp today (which im not really even a fan of!) on one shirt and 5 pairs of earrings. what the hell!! then we got our usual afternoon fix of caffiene and went to coach and kokopelli to get our purse fix. i talked gramme out of buying a truly sad coach bag that looked like the strap was made for a jungle trek. like honestly, canvas with satin at coach is a no go. i wish i could explain it better but it was horrible. then we went to kokopelli and we saw that the katherine collection from the vera bradley bags were discontinued so we immediately went into panic mode and wanted to buy all of them. but we came to our senses and gramme called her jamaican vera bradley dealer and told her to hold the vera bag and the villager bag for me until she got back to florida and she would get them at discount and mail them up to me. yay two new bags for college. ill use them to carry books and my gym shit. awesome! then i went home and took care of DOUGHY/doey the tea cup yorkie im dog sitting for joanne while shes up yelling at dateline for fucking up their poligamy trial. sweet life dude. then i gymed it and tanned and came home and showered and ate dinner with mommy. apparently everyone was staying intonight but i did not believe that. but i went to the bucks in my pjs with some other people aka the loves of my life. now i am home downloading kazaa bc limewire and itunes are fucknig me over.
SO tomorrow=wednesday. i will awaken. gym, tan, maybe get my hair done? i do not know i need to contact senorita jay. i bought a new straightener! yippee! omg so last night was jordis. pretty fun! we get there and glenn starts making sangria which was lovely only next time don pour the whole bag of sugan in glennito! haha i wish he would have used equal! hahaha holy crap now i remember why i fucking hate kazaa its ruining my computer. bitchin. so um jordis mom made us margharitas and played ruit and um OH hooked up with weird matt cunningham. i played with glenn and had a sing along with djs and bonded with ashlyn with whom i love and ashley comes home tomorrrow!!!! fucking sweet and thursday is her coming home party!!!!! omg yess! sat is the beach!!! ahhhhhhh now i must downlaod music and do a survey sweet bitches
awww i just read a lot of the entries from april. i was sooo giddy. i had such a massive crush on this kid! now im just irritated with him. who knows. like i said i wont see him ever again so thats cool. i hope when college rolls around i will appeal to someone besides homosexuals and creepy booksellers (im way too tired to tell that story now but OMG) who knows. so today glenn called me at 930 to meet him and danny for coffee while glenn got his car shampooed bc danny VOMITTED in his new car!!! hahahahaha funny shit right there. so i answer and im like okay il lbe there at 10. i went upstairs to get dressed and i pass out on my bed. whoa there i wake up at 1140 and realize i have to meet gramme at bahama breeze at 12. definitely threw some clothes on and ran out of the house. then we malled it. i spent 88 dollars at bp today (which im not really even a fan of!) on one shirt and 5 pairs of earrings. what the hell!! then we got our usual afternoon fix of caffiene and went to coach and kokopelli to get our purse fix. i talked gramme out of buying a truly sad coach bag that looked like the strap was made for a jungle trek. like honestly, canvas with satin at coach is a no go. i wish i could explain it better but it was horrible. then we went to kokopelli and we saw that the katherine collection from the vera bradley bags were discontinued so we immediately went into panic mode and wanted to buy all of them. but we came to our senses and gramme called her jamaican vera bradley dealer and told her to hold the vera bag and the villager bag for me until she got back to florida and she would get them at discount and mail them up to me. yay two new bags for college. ill use them to carry books and my gym shit. awesome! then i went home and took care of DOUGHY/doey the tea cup yorkie im dog sitting for joanne while shes up yelling at dateline for fucking up their poligamy trial. sweet life dude. then i gymed it and tanned and came home and showered and ate dinner with mommy. apparently everyone was staying intonight but i did not believe that. but i went to the bucks in my pjs with some other people aka the loves of my life. now i am home downloading kazaa bc limewire and itunes are fucknig me over.
SO tomorrow=wednesday. i will awaken. gym, tan, maybe get my hair done? i do not know i need to contact senorita jay. i bought a new straightener! yippee! omg so last night was jordis. pretty fun! we get there and glenn starts making sangria which was lovely only next time don pour the whole bag of sugan in glennito! haha i wish he would have used equal! hahaha holy crap now i remember why i fucking hate kazaa its ruining my computer. bitchin. so um jordis mom made us margharitas and played ruit and um OH hooked up with weird matt cunningham. i played with glenn and had a sing along with djs and bonded with ashlyn with whom i love and ashley comes home tomorrrow!!!! fucking sweet and thursday is her coming home party!!!!! omg yess! sat is the beach!!! ahhhhhhh now i must downlaod music and do a survey sweet bitches