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Everything is over for the year. I'm all a mess of emotion and just being incredibly tired. Finals week I spent upwards of 60 hours in the library in five days. I took a final. I wrote 2 papers, one of which is the best one I ever wrote (and I'll post it sometime because it will be especially interesting to New Yorkers).
Nate and I were dating and then we decided to take a break for the summer and then he completely unexpectedly broke up with me the next day. For once I thought I had everything figured out and I was really happy and truly satisfied. I guess I was wrong. I am confused and ambivalent about the entire situation and whether or not it is a blessing in disguise. Driving home, I had a lot of time to think. The conclusions I came up with were thoughts that I've been trying to surpress for about a year because the possibility of losing a friend in the attempt to fall in love is something I'm not sure I want to face. I'm not really going to get into more detail here, so if you want to know more about this, call me or something.
It took a whole day to pack and it was worse than usual because I was emotionally drained. I said goodbye to a lot of people who I won't see for a whole year and who I will truly miss. It hasn't really hit me yet that I won't see them for such a long time. Being back in Brooklyn, I feel like I am in an alternate universe. It's kind of unreal because I feel like it's not really home. College is such an in-between time. You have two separate lives that are next to impossible to bring together. I'm glad I won't be around enough this summer to settle down and have to uproot again. On the other hand, I wish I could be around more to hang out with everyone and go to all the amazing concerts that will be occurring (David- TV on the Radio's playing for free and I'm going to miss them!).
You know what would be really awesome? If growing up wasn't so confusing.
This is such a cliche blogosphere rant.
Nate and I were dating and then we decided to take a break for the summer and then he completely unexpectedly broke up with me the next day. For once I thought I had everything figured out and I was really happy and truly satisfied. I guess I was wrong. I am confused and ambivalent about the entire situation and whether or not it is a blessing in disguise. Driving home, I had a lot of time to think. The conclusions I came up with were thoughts that I've been trying to surpress for about a year because the possibility of losing a friend in the attempt to fall in love is something I'm not sure I want to face. I'm not really going to get into more detail here, so if you want to know more about this, call me or something.
It took a whole day to pack and it was worse than usual because I was emotionally drained. I said goodbye to a lot of people who I won't see for a whole year and who I will truly miss. It hasn't really hit me yet that I won't see them for such a long time. Being back in Brooklyn, I feel like I am in an alternate universe. It's kind of unreal because I feel like it's not really home. College is such an in-between time. You have two separate lives that are next to impossible to bring together. I'm glad I won't be around enough this summer to settle down and have to uproot again. On the other hand, I wish I could be around more to hang out with everyone and go to all the amazing concerts that will be occurring (David- TV on the Radio's playing for free and I'm going to miss them!).
You know what would be really awesome? If growing up wasn't so confusing.
This is such a cliche blogosphere rant.