Redwood Ranting
My little sister started her first day back at Redwood today. I'm glad UCSD doesn't start that early and even more so I'm glad I now go to UCSD and not Redwood. That place was a miserable vaguely rhomboid holding facility full of cliques and I would have just as soon given it back to the march that was wrecked to build it.
That said I don't suppose it is too healthy to spend all my time ranting about how muc I hated high school. Especially now since it's been over a year since I graduated and should be moved on to more important things. Well, I have moved on I just have a nasty tendency to hold grudges way longer than I should. This especially doesn't make sense in light of the fact that I screw up so much on my own that I really should be more forgiving of less than ideal behavior on the parts of other people, or in this case, and entire phase of my life.
In fairness to Redwood I suppose a lot of the social problem I had there were my fault anyway. Seeing as I was afraid to talk to just about anybody and spent more time thinking about the ocean than how I should interact with actual humans. This is a problem that is unfortunately still with me today. I have no idea how to end a conversation with somebody who I don't know very well. Instead it just drags off into awkward silence and nobody likes to put up with that sort of thing. My other big social liability is that I usually don't make eye contact with people, especially people I'm not familiar with. This might by some leftover primitive instinct (with most animals direct eye contact is a sign of a challenge), it could be my fear of being accused of staring (something that humans don't like, see we still don't like being challenged), or it could be some weird quirk of my own physiology or psychology (when I look at things for too long sometimes my eyes start tearing up and that is always difficult to explain).
I suppose though in a few ways my social skills have improved a bit. The good thing about college is it lets you start over. I don't quote song lyrics as often as I used to. Well, except on my facebook profile and that's harmless.
That said I don't suppose it is too healthy to spend all my time ranting about how muc I hated high school. Especially now since it's been over a year since I graduated and should be moved on to more important things. Well, I have moved on I just have a nasty tendency to hold grudges way longer than I should. This especially doesn't make sense in light of the fact that I screw up so much on my own that I really should be more forgiving of less than ideal behavior on the parts of other people, or in this case, and entire phase of my life.
In fairness to Redwood I suppose a lot of the social problem I had there were my fault anyway. Seeing as I was afraid to talk to just about anybody and spent more time thinking about the ocean than how I should interact with actual humans. This is a problem that is unfortunately still with me today. I have no idea how to end a conversation with somebody who I don't know very well. Instead it just drags off into awkward silence and nobody likes to put up with that sort of thing. My other big social liability is that I usually don't make eye contact with people, especially people I'm not familiar with. This might by some leftover primitive instinct (with most animals direct eye contact is a sign of a challenge), it could be my fear of being accused of staring (something that humans don't like, see we still don't like being challenged), or it could be some weird quirk of my own physiology or psychology (when I look at things for too long sometimes my eyes start tearing up and that is always difficult to explain).
I suppose though in a few ways my social skills have improved a bit. The good thing about college is it lets you start over. I don't quote song lyrics as often as I used to. Well, except on my facebook profile and that's harmless.