"doesn't change the fact that I always liked having you around"

[jewgermeiger]

this prolly isn't something that ever goes away, but I try my best to hate you less with each passing day...
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time heals, but we all have our scars
life moves on, as do I
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I've said some terrible things that I don't even feel sorry for
maybe I'm a bad person
or maybe you just deserve it

cuz it isn't like I was the one with my hand on the gun
all the bullets came from your direction
and just when it was done I got ready for another injection
I was so drugged up, I was so fuct up for you

and I've come to learn what it feels like to care more for another person
it feels like shit when they ain't even got ur back
than myself
I shoulda looked out for me

and I don't need the bullshit that you deal just on purpose
there's more to me than what lies on the surface
the same can't be said, the same can't be said for you
I still can't comprehend all the shit that you put me through

and I'll be the one to take responsibilty for your actions
cuz you would always just act like nothing ever happened
it's not cool, it's just wrong
I guess I set this up, I guess I put myself in this position

well I'm still trying
I'm trying my best to deal with the fact that someone so close could hurt me so bad
and I'm trying my best to keep myself from never trusting again
cuz I don't wanna be a bitter person
I don't wanna end up like you