life is duplicitous
Here's a new word I've learned: DUPLICITOUS, meaning deceitful, deceptive, dishonest, misleading. I picked it up during a documentary on the baby boomers, regarding the part on the war in Vietnam. I like the way it pronounces.
Class+work is extensively stressing me out. Thoughts are flooding my mind constantly. They run by like clips from situations that I could be a part of, fully played out with all the details. The thing is, I have little control over what happens or who I'm talking with. They just happen. And the worse thing is I can't shut this off. I'm left awake and annoyed. This is how I know when I'm really stressed. In hopes of clarity, I'm going to list current evils of my life:
calc class: I don't remember anything from before, leading to my feeling really stupid
applications: horrific doubts on whether I'd be accepted, having no control, still need to do some, vomit at thought of writing another bs essay
work: new position new responsibilities, feeling uncomfortable, strange, and disrespected
parking: none, making me embarassingly late
and: I feel fat
Class+work is extensively stressing me out. Thoughts are flooding my mind constantly. They run by like clips from situations that I could be a part of, fully played out with all the details. The thing is, I have little control over what happens or who I'm talking with. They just happen. And the worse thing is I can't shut this off. I'm left awake and annoyed. This is how I know when I'm really stressed. In hopes of clarity, I'm going to list current evils of my life:
calc class: I don't remember anything from before, leading to my feeling really stupid
applications: horrific doubts on whether I'd be accepted, having no control, still need to do some, vomit at thought of writing another bs essay
work: new position new responsibilities, feeling uncomfortable, strange, and disrespected
parking: none, making me embarassingly late
and: I feel fat