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Jul 05, 2008 21:42

I have totally, if not entirely neglected the internet as of late. I don’t know what it is exactly. I think in part, I’m sick of my job and I’ve fallen into an “I just don’t care” mood. By all means, I’m really sick of working here, it’s not my thing and I’m surprised I’ve made it this far. I have just about less than 15 days left before I'm done here. My last day is July the 20th and it cannot come soon enough. Maybe if I can start living during the day rather than the night, my mentality will change and I can get out of this rut. I've also got less than 10 shifts to go now, so its not too bad. I'm afraid that at this point I'm actually counting down, haha. Then again, what else is new?

As for what I've been up to lately.. work and some random things. I've been drawing quite a bit as well but I've been quite lazy to post them. They're either in my photobucket or my Deviantart accounts.

I don't know if I should be proud of this or not but within a week I've gone from episode 60 of Bleach to episode 128. They're currently at 178 I think. Anyway, I'm really enjoying the series now that I can just sit down and watch it and not have to worry about popularity or some junk. Speaking of Bleach, I was looking online the other day and was so tempted to simply buy the cosplay rather than to make it. It makes me feel cheap but I know that I'm not experienced enough to make a cosplay on my own. It troubles me in that way. I know I'll have to buy the sandals and socks no matter what. I'm also still worried if I'm going to feel ok prancing around in a costume during a convention. I've got mixed feelings about it all but I know I want to go no matter what.

Soon College starts for me again. I'm anxious and nervous all at the same time. I've been having a lot of doubt in me lately about my art. I think I'm just scaring myself to the point where I'm afraid to try drawing things I'm not used to. Or if someone has mentioned something before, I'll keep it in my mind as I draw even if I know it'll kill the drawing because I'm trying too hard to please other people. Rather than to enjoy drawing anime, I'll try to make it look like its not anime and I just won't be sure of what to do and get mad at it. I think I need to ignore those thoughts for now and just draw what comes to mind. Which is easier said than done...

Then theres this car I have my eye on. My parents and I are still iffy about it though. I was ready to pay 5000 for it..though now the asking price is 6200. Daddy said he'd look into it more and tell me what he thinks after he's actually looked under the hood and what not. I've been wanting a car for the longest time now and its kinda just getting to that point where I'm wanting it even more. With the price of gas being high as it is, yeah a nice small easy on gas car would be lovely. And it would be mine, I'd put my parents as secondary and I would pay my own insurance. (I know I'm already spoiled rotten, shh you all x.x; )

Bah, this turned out of be a depressing entry, I'm sorry guys! Hopefully my next one will be on a better note.
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