Two entries from my xanga posted in one for my livejournal...
So...classes start for me tomorrow. I'm nervous...I have a full course-load. A VERY full course-load. And the fucking loan company still hasn't sent me a letter confirming I got the loan or even declining the fucking thing. I sent them my information a month ago...so, if I don't recieve notification in the mail tomorrow afternoon, I'm calling them and bitching them out. If I don't, then I can't take the last class I need to graduate in may (because I still owe 102 dollars), and I can't afford my text books, which means I have to drop out...needless to say, I'm a little anxious over this matter.
So, my first class is math tomorrow morning at 8 am...then I have enviromental science at 10, and western Civilizations from 11:00-11:50. That will be my schedule every monday, wednesday and friday. Luckily, on thursdays I don't have class til 11...so I can at least kind of sleep in...but on tuesdays, class is at 9...that being my yoga class...so that should be okay. It's POWER YOGA, so, hopefully that means it'll give me some energy and not put me to sleep, which I already feel like doing now. I've been extremely tired lately...I think I may be getting sick...
Currently Playing
Let It Be... Naked
By The Beatles
Across the Universe - this song makes me cry...
Monday, January 10, 2005
There are many things going on right now that I'm utterly confused about. Though, it's still the same shit, essentially, that's been bothering me for forever, now. Like...where is my life heading? And how I'm going to move out of this place...and hopefully, soon. I also keep forgetting that the only person I can truly rely on...is me. In that case, I need to be more reliable and goal-oriented and not so lazy. I may end up going back to art school, though a different one, preferably in nyc...or, somehow, just MOVING there and being completely and utterly fucked for cash for awhile and having to work my ass off in the real world for once. I know that if I don't just leave, I'll never do it. This coming summer has, for the past few years, been, in my mind, the summer I'd leave home. And my leaving home is not going to be anywhere in the state of pennsylvania. I need to get out on my own, even if I'm uncomfortable. I'm determined, and I will.
I will get good grades this semester and work my ass off.
I will work on my portfolio and complete the paintings in my mind in the next few months...
I will be positive and hardworking and things will work out...
So, my first class is math tomorrow morning at 8 am...then I have enviromental science at 10, and western Civilizations from 11:00-11:50. That will be my schedule every monday, wednesday and friday. Luckily, on thursdays I don't have class til 11...so I can at least kind of sleep in...but on tuesdays, class is at 9...that being my yoga class...so that should be okay. It's POWER YOGA, so, hopefully that means it'll give me some energy and not put me to sleep, which I already feel like doing now. I've been extremely tired lately...I think I may be getting sick...
Currently Playing
Let It Be... Naked
By The Beatles
Across the Universe - this song makes me cry...
Monday, January 10, 2005
There are many things going on right now that I'm utterly confused about. Though, it's still the same shit, essentially, that's been bothering me for forever, now. Like...where is my life heading? And how I'm going to move out of this place...and hopefully, soon. I also keep forgetting that the only person I can truly rely on...is me. In that case, I need to be more reliable and goal-oriented and not so lazy. I may end up going back to art school, though a different one, preferably in nyc...or, somehow, just MOVING there and being completely and utterly fucked for cash for awhile and having to work my ass off in the real world for once. I know that if I don't just leave, I'll never do it. This coming summer has, for the past few years, been, in my mind, the summer I'd leave home. And my leaving home is not going to be anywhere in the state of pennsylvania. I need to get out on my own, even if I'm uncomfortable. I'm determined, and I will.
I will get good grades this semester and work my ass off.
I will work on my portfolio and complete the paintings in my mind in the next few months...
I will be positive and hardworking and things will work out...