It was a joke... not funny.
Alright, so I'm having issues with myself and Daniel. See, it's the first time in my entire life that I end up with someone who's "less experienced" then me towards sex. And he's older then me too... it freaked him out at first so I didn't talk about it. Then he decided maybe if he knew about all of my little "adventures", he'd be able to work through them.
It's the first time in my life I've been made to feel self-conscious about my sexual past and even feel kind of dirty. I don't see why I should and I never had before now. Anyway, after a few months he seemed to be dealing with it alright.
Now though, we were watching tv and the guys in the show were at a stripclub and as a joke I mentioned we should do that for my birthday. Just me and the boys going to a stripclub. He laughed at first and then asked if I was serious. I told him that exactly what I'd done last year for my birthday. He laughed and said alright, let's do it. I figured alright then, let's...
Next thing I know, some of his friends think I'm kewl but a little weird and one of the guys' girlfriend got mad at Daniel for taking her boyfriend to a stripclub. On top of that, he had the nerve to ask me "you won't take your clothes off in front of my friend right"? What the fuck! Who does he think I am?
So I told him to forget the whole thing and cancel it, I'm not going. Now he wants us to sit down and talk. He says he doesn't want me to wear "white gloves" around him anymore and just be myself so he can learn to love who I am. Easier said then done now that I've been made utterly uncomfortable and self-conscious about it all. It's hard to go backwards after that.
Damn it, I don't know. I shouldn't have to explain myself like this. You either love me for who I am or you don't and that's that. That's just me... guess I'll let you know how my "chat" goes.
It's the first time in my life I've been made to feel self-conscious about my sexual past and even feel kind of dirty. I don't see why I should and I never had before now. Anyway, after a few months he seemed to be dealing with it alright.
Now though, we were watching tv and the guys in the show were at a stripclub and as a joke I mentioned we should do that for my birthday. Just me and the boys going to a stripclub. He laughed at first and then asked if I was serious. I told him that exactly what I'd done last year for my birthday. He laughed and said alright, let's do it. I figured alright then, let's...
Next thing I know, some of his friends think I'm kewl but a little weird and one of the guys' girlfriend got mad at Daniel for taking her boyfriend to a stripclub. On top of that, he had the nerve to ask me "you won't take your clothes off in front of my friend right"? What the fuck! Who does he think I am?
So I told him to forget the whole thing and cancel it, I'm not going. Now he wants us to sit down and talk. He says he doesn't want me to wear "white gloves" around him anymore and just be myself so he can learn to love who I am. Easier said then done now that I've been made utterly uncomfortable and self-conscious about it all. It's hard to go backwards after that.
Damn it, I don't know. I shouldn't have to explain myself like this. You either love me for who I am or you don't and that's that. That's just me... guess I'll let you know how my "chat" goes.