Best friend VS Love
Sigh... I've known for years that my best friend was in love with me. He's told me that much and in many more words, expressed that there will never be another woman for him. I'm so torn. I love him to bits! We've even tried dating a couple of times, but I'm always the one who backs out. I guess because we've been friends so long, we have this amazing connection, and knowing myself and how I am with relationships, I'd rather keep him as a friend and know I'll always have him near me then try a relationship and possibly ruin it all.
Even bigger problem, is now I've met someone I'm head over heals in love with. He's remarkable and at the risk of jinxing it, I think he might actually be the one for me.
Now, every time I see my best friend or even talk to him via e-mail (like we do all day every work day), I feel like he's so far away. He tells me he's trying to get over me and trying to "just be friends" (which I totally understand, but in a weird way kinda hurts a little too), but he's having a hard time and I don't know how to help him (honestly, I know it's the best thing to do, it's not fair for him). He used to be so closed up, wouldn't talk to anybody about his feelings. Over the past 2-3 years he's really opened up to me and it's been great to see that side of him. But now... I feel like he's drifting away from me and I don't know how to make it stop.
Even bigger problem, is now I've met someone I'm head over heals in love with. He's remarkable and at the risk of jinxing it, I think he might actually be the one for me.
Now, every time I see my best friend or even talk to him via e-mail (like we do all day every work day), I feel like he's so far away. He tells me he's trying to get over me and trying to "just be friends" (which I totally understand, but in a weird way kinda hurts a little too), but he's having a hard time and I don't know how to help him (honestly, I know it's the best thing to do, it's not fair for him). He used to be so closed up, wouldn't talk to anybody about his feelings. Over the past 2-3 years he's really opened up to me and it's been great to see that side of him. But now... I feel like he's drifting away from me and I don't know how to make it stop.