I'm such a child...
I want to go home... To Ottawa I mean... The only thing really keeping here is my boyfriend. I love him to no ends and I really think he could be IT. But then again, I don't see him very often, so the rest of the time I'm home alone, wishing I was somewhere else.
I went to Ottawa last weekend and it was so great to see everybody. Some I hadn't seen since Canada Day, others since my birthday in April... and others even longer, since Holly and Greg's wedding! I mis you guy's, and I miss that. Just being able to drop by anywhere after work for a coffee, a chat, or whatever else...
Here, I don't have that. I don't make friends easily... Not that I'm not approachable, but I'm not super outgoing. Well at least not around strangers. So I've made a couple of good friends here, but I work with them. So it's not like we hang out together all the time outside of work.
I crave home, quiet, where my family is, where all my friends are, where I know everything and everywhere. I'm not a fan of long distance relationships. They never seem to work out and I can't handle the "weekends only relationship". I know Daniel would never leave his job though, he loves it and he's been there twelve years. AND, he just bought a house... on the other side of Montreal. He's got all his (many, many, many) frieds here, mom's gonna be even closer once he moves, and dad's in Laval. He's got a job he loves and everything is going peachy for him.
For me, all my friends are in Ottawa, so are my parent's and most of my friends. Here, I hate my job, my apartment, although I like it, is very noisy and I can't sleep. I just feel like I'm wasting my life waiting for those few moments Daniel and I get to spend together. I love him so much though...
I'm so lost... I know what you'll all say... "Does he know that?" Well, no, because I haven't seen him in two weeks! I've seen him, but only late at night, and I'm so tired by then it's not long I'm going to sleep. So ya, I know, I'll start by talking to him tonight...
I'm just so clueless as to how I'm gonna make the two things I want work together.
I went to Ottawa last weekend and it was so great to see everybody. Some I hadn't seen since Canada Day, others since my birthday in April... and others even longer, since Holly and Greg's wedding! I mis you guy's, and I miss that. Just being able to drop by anywhere after work for a coffee, a chat, or whatever else...
Here, I don't have that. I don't make friends easily... Not that I'm not approachable, but I'm not super outgoing. Well at least not around strangers. So I've made a couple of good friends here, but I work with them. So it's not like we hang out together all the time outside of work.
I crave home, quiet, where my family is, where all my friends are, where I know everything and everywhere. I'm not a fan of long distance relationships. They never seem to work out and I can't handle the "weekends only relationship". I know Daniel would never leave his job though, he loves it and he's been there twelve years. AND, he just bought a house... on the other side of Montreal. He's got all his (many, many, many) frieds here, mom's gonna be even closer once he moves, and dad's in Laval. He's got a job he loves and everything is going peachy for him.
For me, all my friends are in Ottawa, so are my parent's and most of my friends. Here, I hate my job, my apartment, although I like it, is very noisy and I can't sleep. I just feel like I'm wasting my life waiting for those few moments Daniel and I get to spend together. I love him so much though...
I'm so lost... I know what you'll all say... "Does he know that?" Well, no, because I haven't seen him in two weeks! I've seen him, but only late at night, and I'm so tired by then it's not long I'm going to sleep. So ya, I know, I'll start by talking to him tonight...
I'm just so clueless as to how I'm gonna make the two things I want work together.