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I tend to see the world in sunlit gold now... but I belong to the night, and the cold, and though I've never seen it, the sea. I wish I were a bird with wings all silvery white that I could spread. I wish it were really spring-and not just a tease. I wish I saw sunlight right now, but it's dark out. Dark with smog and clouds. No twinkling stars to remind us of the day... sigh.
I feel sort of trapped right now... but... like prison convicts (my friends from last fall, heh heh, just kidding) I just have to do some time and then I'll be free free FREE. (I know this is dorky, bare with me) And that's because I have discovered how to cheat the adult world. yea. In a good way. And because I have power... yes, that kind of power. The future is full of all sorts of life. I want the world and I want it now. *SIGH*
Although I'm not okay right now, I'm also more okay then I have EVER been. And I certainly am going to be alright. I love you all my friends for being so sweet to me. Friends rock.
Tonight I got all dolled up, and none of my Roachville friends were home-even some who said they would be coughstarcough. So I went out and bought incense and chai. lol, what a nerd. Oh well it made me feel better. And I met a very wonderful boy...now if only I had figured out to keep the conversation going after a very obviously interested "Hi" (Ideas girls? lol) Sigh again.
I'm dangerously close to becoming an ego-maniac...in fact it might already be too late to stop it.
In other news it appears that I may be going to Michigan State University the year after next. (Rejoice.)
p.s. I think that next time I go thrifting, it would solve a lot of my problems if I didn't buy stupid dresses. heh.
I feel sort of trapped right now... but... like prison convicts (my friends from last fall, heh heh, just kidding) I just have to do some time and then I'll be free free FREE. (I know this is dorky, bare with me) And that's because I have discovered how to cheat the adult world. yea. In a good way. And because I have power... yes, that kind of power. The future is full of all sorts of life. I want the world and I want it now. *SIGH*
Although I'm not okay right now, I'm also more okay then I have EVER been. And I certainly am going to be alright. I love you all my friends for being so sweet to me. Friends rock.
Tonight I got all dolled up, and none of my Roachville friends were home-even some who said they would be coughstarcough. So I went out and bought incense and chai. lol, what a nerd. Oh well it made me feel better. And I met a very wonderful boy...now if only I had figured out to keep the conversation going after a very obviously interested "Hi" (Ideas girls? lol) Sigh again.
I'm dangerously close to becoming an ego-maniac...in fact it might already be too late to stop it.
In other news it appears that I may be going to Michigan State University the year after next. (Rejoice.)
p.s. I think that next time I go thrifting, it would solve a lot of my problems if I didn't buy stupid dresses. heh.