I'm going to be completely honest...
I'm lonely.
I feel hopeless.
I hate my job.
I can't afford dance classes.
I spend my days off doing nothing, because that's all I can afford to do. I'm in an emotional rut. It is exhausting putting on the front that everything is fine, because it isn't. I refuse to move back to TN before my lease is up, because I feel like that is defeat.
On the upside, I have lost weight. Almost 10lbs worth. Not that anyone up here can tell, I only stand out because I'm the lone white girl at Aero. Trust me, the cash register is my safety.
I have made 2 friends that I can count. They live in the Bronx, which is almost 2 hours metro ride from where I live. I can't really hang out with them because it is against policy, and someone would get fired. Corporate office is literally 2 blocks away.
The apartment is quaint. The roof is finally sealed, but the ceiling is still peeling, and who knows the extent of the water damage. I'll find out when I'm dying of mold allergies.
I've never felt this way before, and it is eating me alive. I guess I'll have a beer and get over it.
I feel hopeless.
I hate my job.
I can't afford dance classes.
I spend my days off doing nothing, because that's all I can afford to do. I'm in an emotional rut. It is exhausting putting on the front that everything is fine, because it isn't. I refuse to move back to TN before my lease is up, because I feel like that is defeat.
On the upside, I have lost weight. Almost 10lbs worth. Not that anyone up here can tell, I only stand out because I'm the lone white girl at Aero. Trust me, the cash register is my safety.
I have made 2 friends that I can count. They live in the Bronx, which is almost 2 hours metro ride from where I live. I can't really hang out with them because it is against policy, and someone would get fired. Corporate office is literally 2 blocks away.
The apartment is quaint. The roof is finally sealed, but the ceiling is still peeling, and who knows the extent of the water damage. I'll find out when I'm dying of mold allergies.
I've never felt this way before, and it is eating me alive. I guess I'll have a beer and get over it.