if i could only

[jewel62689]

if i could only explain
but where would i begin
i hate myself for every ounce of pain i ever put you though......
how could i ask you to forgive me if i cant even forgive myself......
a pheonix out of the ashes...
god i hate myself SO MUCH!!!!!
fuck it......cant fix anthing anymore.....
but you should know.......im sorry......id give my life to make you understand......but itd still be no good......
im sorry...