Update
well ihavent been able to update this becuase the dates got screwed up.
not that many people read it anyways.
i think if michael read it hed know why things always bother me.
maybe he doesent care?
but he has to care.
hes all i have.
sometimes i think of all the people i could be with right now.
not many but still
but you know i wouldent go back in time to be with them and give him up?
does he realize that?
i wish he did.
but he doesent
he thinks i cheat on him.
i know he does.
theres not much i can do.
ive fucked up alot.
belive me
but id never cheat on him
i think if you have to cheat on someone your not truely happy with them and you need to be so thats why instead of cheating you should just come foward and say your not happy and you want to be with someone else
you could save someone alot of pain that way.
i mean yeah i think about things i dont have becuase i chose to stay with him. but then i think of everything i have too and i wouldent give that way for anything,
you know what bothers me the most tho,
is the fact that he sees any guy as a threat and caused trouble for them if they try to hang out with me so i have no guy friends left.
i went to jessica troutt's today
shes going to prom with some girl whos a junior lol so i asked her to take me but thats right it not her prom lol
so i thought and Sean Kilgore popped in my head and i thought well hell. he dont go to things like that so ill see if he'll take me.
but hes a senior.
and i think theres a junior and senior prom
so i think thier different wich would defete the purpose.
but anyways ill bring this matter up to jess tomarrow before she asks him and so she can figure it all out before she asks lol
anyways Falling till Dawn broke up.
really depressing becuase they were all so good together but its like nobody can seem to get along and ive known josh for 5 years now but i guess he was giving kyle shit and kyle is a sweetheart and dont think hed go out of his was just to be an ass.
anyways on a lighter note. Kris' band is called Photo E he got the name from chemistry class anyways i guess he wrecked his car, its an oldsmobile cutlass. red. we have one too. its blue lol. wierd.
now you know
if michael was ever to read any of this about kris hed kill me
but gees you know shit gets old
i cant even have a friend becuase i used to like him
alot
i understand but give it up
hes banging his girlfriend so much he cant see straight enought to even go after me lol
he dont want me anyways
never did
i mean he thought i was good looking but not dateable i guess lol
i guess what i wanted most was to be close to him
just like friends
i know hes been through
not that many people read it anyways.
i think if michael read it hed know why things always bother me.
maybe he doesent care?
but he has to care.
hes all i have.
sometimes i think of all the people i could be with right now.
not many but still
but you know i wouldent go back in time to be with them and give him up?
does he realize that?
i wish he did.
but he doesent
he thinks i cheat on him.
i know he does.
theres not much i can do.
ive fucked up alot.
belive me
but id never cheat on him
i think if you have to cheat on someone your not truely happy with them and you need to be so thats why instead of cheating you should just come foward and say your not happy and you want to be with someone else
you could save someone alot of pain that way.
i mean yeah i think about things i dont have becuase i chose to stay with him. but then i think of everything i have too and i wouldent give that way for anything,
you know what bothers me the most tho,
is the fact that he sees any guy as a threat and caused trouble for them if they try to hang out with me so i have no guy friends left.
i went to jessica troutt's today
shes going to prom with some girl whos a junior lol so i asked her to take me but thats right it not her prom lol
so i thought and Sean Kilgore popped in my head and i thought well hell. he dont go to things like that so ill see if he'll take me.
but hes a senior.
and i think theres a junior and senior prom
so i think thier different wich would defete the purpose.
but anyways ill bring this matter up to jess tomarrow before she asks him and so she can figure it all out before she asks lol
anyways Falling till Dawn broke up.
really depressing becuase they were all so good together but its like nobody can seem to get along and ive known josh for 5 years now but i guess he was giving kyle shit and kyle is a sweetheart and dont think hed go out of his was just to be an ass.
anyways on a lighter note. Kris' band is called Photo E he got the name from chemistry class anyways i guess he wrecked his car, its an oldsmobile cutlass. red. we have one too. its blue lol. wierd.
now you know
if michael was ever to read any of this about kris hed kill me
but gees you know shit gets old
i cant even have a friend becuase i used to like him
alot
i understand but give it up
hes banging his girlfriend so much he cant see straight enought to even go after me lol
he dont want me anyways
never did
i mean he thought i was good looking but not dateable i guess lol
i guess what i wanted most was to be close to him
just like friends
i know hes been through