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I had a sort of revelation tonight. I realized that I'm scared of what will happen if I stop thinking about her. I'm afraid she'll dissapear. Like everything I've gone through in the past 7 or so years has been in vain. I don't cry anymore. Which I guess is a good thing... But.. I worry about her. I don't want to forget her. But I want to move on with my life. These past few weeks have been so busy that I haven't really had the time to cry. I haven't had the time to do a lot of things I'd like to. She's still on my buddy list. But, I haven't seen her online in the past month... That scares me. I wish I knew who to talk to. I could call her mom... But that would be uncomfortable to say the least.... Somebody please tell me what I should do.... If you still read this. Please. Just give me some fucking closure.