There's a Fine, Fine Line...
I finally put my heart on the line, and I am reminded of why I have no desire for actual feelings towards another human being.
IHeartBowie0516: can i ask you a question?
TR0Z: sure
IHeartBowie0516: do you think of me as a fuck buddy?
TR0Z: Not really, it just always seems to happen. I usually end up feeling guiltyish the next day, because I don't want it to be like that.
IHeartBowie0516: what do you want it to be like?
TR0Z: I don't know. I don't want a relationship or anything. So I guess just friends?
IHeartBowie0516: just friends because you don't want a relationship? or you don't see me as more than that?
IHeartBowie0516: because i think its different
IHeartBowie0516: cuz i like you, i couldnt handle a long distance relationship. but i do know i like you
TR0Z: I think it's both. you're really awesome, but I just don't feel that way. I know it's lame, but I'm still really in love with my ex girlfriend and it still effects how I feel about other girls, even though it's been a while.
TR0Z: I'm sorry. 8(
IHeartBowie0516: i just dont get it, did you think i would keep coming down to see you if i didnt like you? why would you keep letting me with out saying something, just feeling guilty after
IHeartBowie0516: especially because youre not exactly some random guy i met, i think ive known you a fairly long time
TR0Z: I don't know... I guess it's just that you're a pretty good friend, so I figured maybe you were coming down just as a friend, especially because a lot of the times you were in the area anyways. And I didn't plan on things happening. And then they did, but I didn't really know how to tell you. I should have, though.
IHeartBowie0516: yea, maybe. or you could have not let things happen, and yea, maybe it would have been awkward, but just so you know, this sucks
TR0Z: I'm really sorry.
Just Friends?
I feel hurt, angry, betryayed, lost, depressed, crushed, and yet at the same time, I feel absolutely nothing. I am so hurt that I don't even feel at all. I want to never feel again so that this can't happen. How does this happen? I've known him so long, how did I miss the fact that he's a douchebag. He was always such a great guy. I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep, writing this is just making it worse...
IHeartBowie0516: can i ask you a question?
TR0Z: sure
IHeartBowie0516: do you think of me as a fuck buddy?
TR0Z: Not really, it just always seems to happen. I usually end up feeling guiltyish the next day, because I don't want it to be like that.
IHeartBowie0516: what do you want it to be like?
TR0Z: I don't know. I don't want a relationship or anything. So I guess just friends?
IHeartBowie0516: just friends because you don't want a relationship? or you don't see me as more than that?
IHeartBowie0516: because i think its different
IHeartBowie0516: cuz i like you, i couldnt handle a long distance relationship. but i do know i like you
TR0Z: I think it's both. you're really awesome, but I just don't feel that way. I know it's lame, but I'm still really in love with my ex girlfriend and it still effects how I feel about other girls, even though it's been a while.
TR0Z: I'm sorry. 8(
IHeartBowie0516: i just dont get it, did you think i would keep coming down to see you if i didnt like you? why would you keep letting me with out saying something, just feeling guilty after
IHeartBowie0516: especially because youre not exactly some random guy i met, i think ive known you a fairly long time
TR0Z: I don't know... I guess it's just that you're a pretty good friend, so I figured maybe you were coming down just as a friend, especially because a lot of the times you were in the area anyways. And I didn't plan on things happening. And then they did, but I didn't really know how to tell you. I should have, though.
IHeartBowie0516: yea, maybe. or you could have not let things happen, and yea, maybe it would have been awkward, but just so you know, this sucks
TR0Z: I'm really sorry.
Just Friends?
I feel hurt, angry, betryayed, lost, depressed, crushed, and yet at the same time, I feel absolutely nothing. I am so hurt that I don't even feel at all. I want to never feel again so that this can't happen. How does this happen? I've known him so long, how did I miss the fact that he's a douchebag. He was always such a great guy. I'm gonna go cry myself to sleep, writing this is just making it worse...