why is it so hard to tell someone you like them?
I REALLY like a boy, and that scares the shit out of me, and I don't know what to do about it. I can't keep going and visiting him if I don't know that he likes me back the way I like him. But I don't know how to say something to him, partly because I don't want to scare him, and partly because I'm scared as hell of rejection. I can't handle this having feelings crap, I do pretty well with casual sex. I'm driving myself insane by keeping all of this in my head, and the fact that I've known him so long makes it ten times worse. Why does my life have to be so fucking complicated? Why couldn't I just have been betrothed at birth so I wouldn't have to deal with being a girl and having feelings for a boy. And why are all the guys I like into philosophy and ultimate frisbee? I'm sensing a trend...