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[jewcrew129]

Today was extremely crappy. Besides the standard crappiness of what seems to be everyday now, with just an inpending feeling of doom in my life, other specific things today were crappy as well. I didn't get to eat lunch because of an overlap in a make-up quiz and choir practice. I just found out I'm not going to be able to make Guys Quartet

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[wildatheart7]

mike, all i can say is that you're gonna get through it all. it seems impossible sometimes... or maybe a lot (i know only what i read) but its not always bad and i think you know that. its quite possible that you realy do (subconciously?) want things to be bad. trust me. its much easier to be unhappy than it is to be happy. think of all thats going on in the world. is it any wonder why people feel depressed? we always here about the tragic fire that claimed 10 lives, or the accident that killed a child or the man who was murdered down the street far more often than we here about the adoption story of a dog who would have been put to sleep otherwise or the... okay yeah i can't come up with anything positive. see? we hear about the people killed in the war but never about the progress made and the innocent lives saved. we hear about a flood that destroyed homes more than the local fundraiser for cancer research.

you're not alone. if there's one thing that i know about you, its that you're not alone. all i have to do is look at your last entries and see the dozens of friends supporting you. telling you how much fun they had with you, how they can't wait to see you, offer support and kind words when they see that you're down. you are so very loved. you've touched so many people at such a young age and made a forever lasting impression. i really doubt that you're easy to forget. you really have such a wonderful personality and people feel safe talking to you. so don't feel sad and know that you're not alone.

you have an amazing voice so don't start to doubt that. when you doubt yourself, it all comes crashing down so quickly and it takes forever to rebuild it all back. remember there is a silver lining to every cloud (as i believe someone told me...)

feel better, you don't have to feel cheerful if you don't want to. don't feel obligated to be happy. i don't think that that could ever turn out well. don't suppress your feelings because in the end it'll only make things worse. and always remember that your friends love you more than they can express in words even if you don't love them back... although then its not really a friendship... so smile, frown, cry, or laugh whenever and however you want. the world wants michael medford the unique individual he is not some guy trying to belnd into society. and remember that i'm always here and a very faithful friend. =)