This is for you
You-
I relate everything back to you. You have forgotten about me, but the thing is, I will never be able to forget you. No matter how hard I try, I will not be able to escape you. I need to move past the regrets you left me with, but I can't because of everything you took from me. You took everything, and still have all of me. And you STILL want more. Not from me, oh no. At least I have that to be thankful for. It's not that you want more from me, but from everyone else. You keep taking and taking and are never satisfied. You disgust me. But I can't let the memory of you go. And it's still ruining everything.
You-
All of you. I can't let go of you either, because of the one above. It wasn't over for me, but you wanted to end it. I can't shake the feeling that this was only an excuse. It was an easy out, wasn't it? My mistake was an easy way to let me go. You stopped caring so quickly. So quickly your "love" turned to hate. The people I know now top whatever you and I had. Top it by far, but I gave so much time and effort into our relationship. I gave years of my life to you, years that I can never get back. And all of it was a lie, 6 years of my life was based on lies. So badly I want to hate you for that. But I'll never be able to. I look back on you guys with sadness and longing. After all, that's what you wanted right?
You-
You should have told me that you never wanted me. I would have never ever put so much feeling into whatever it was we had. I would have never cried over you. Be that as it may, I still get flustered when I hear your voice. Who is to blame for that?
You-
It's your fault. I blame you for everything. All of the pain, all of the lust, all of the lows, I blame you. I see you looking back at me and i hate it. I still hate you, after everything I've done to try and be okay with who you are. It still isn't good enough. You aren't good enough for anyone. For anything. You should just stop trying because it makes those people laugh. They're laughing at you Jessica. They mock you for trying to rise above it.
Me-
Perhaps I will never be good enough. But I'll die before I stop trying. I'll die before the others win. I will love me. I will be okay with who I am.
And you all can't stop me. I will win. I will be a success, no matter how you try to drag me down.
Drag me down. I dare you. I will win.
I will begin to love you now. Jessica, I will try to be okay with you.