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so its been likea trillion years since ive updated... not much has been goin on besides the fact that im having a great time...except the fact that my fuckin lap top got stolen... boo.. but yea... ive been hangin out w some really cool ppl and im hopin that things just get better... ive been thnkin about someone alot... i havent had the whole wake up to the face and go to sleep w the face in my mind in a while...and its nice... im kinda scared...but im doin what the best friend (jess) says..and just lettin it flow... gregory is completely out of the picture and i couldnt be happier about it... it was a learning experience... the person ive been "seeing" or whatever we wannna call it i have no clue what it is...nor do i care... i just love it... we've been having a great time together as far as i know...he pays a lot of attention to me and he's helping me be a better person... and thats awesome... he gives me butterflies... and i know he'll read it and guess what...i dont care... im not going to be the type to hide my feelings anymore...life is too short... he's a wonderful, sweet, cute, great guy and he's so nice to me...and he makes me feel happy and safe... who knows what the future holds alls i know is ima have fun with this right now and if it goes into something mroe than great...if not thats cool too...im just uber lucky to get to hang out with such a wonderful person...even tho he's a red sox fan... i know dana wouldnt be happy bout that but its okay... i just really hope my heart doesnt get broke really soon... its okay if it does...but not right now... i dont need that i need happy and fun things... we'll for sure see what happens...im just goin w the flow and whatever happens happens im not going to expect anything or nitpick like i usually do... im just goin to relax and let God take control over what happens... whatever his will is will happen regardless of what i want or ask for... so whats the point in worryin about it right? theres none...jess helped me realize that there isnt a point in the world to fuckin worry about things that arent in my control in the first place... im just waitin to see if fireworks fly... im hopin they do... the only thing that bothers me is that he finds a lot of things to critizise me about...and thats not cool... all valid things indeed... but i liek to hear more positive things then negative... im workin on not smokin...not cussin...and whatever else...compromise is key here....man jose makes me talk doesnt it? but guess what im in a great mood and i dont care about what anyone thinks.... i just wanna have fun and be cared about... oh...im in such a great mood right now i cant even help it... and i dont care who reads it... i just need lots of fun in my life...
so in other news... i need to go shopping bc im losing weight yet again and now i need to lower my size from a six to whatever fits...all my new pants are too big now and i need to wear a belt...and let me tell u that i had to add holes to this belt bc the medium size belt is too big...lord i never thought a mediuma anything would be to big for me but oh well...im not complaining... im happy with my body... ive been workin to eat healthier... and its working... i feel great, i look great in my eyes...(who cares what anyone else thinks right?) and im doin great... this is my summer... me and jess said in the winter that this summer will be for us...self discovery here we come... me and jess are two hot ladies on the prowl...betta watch out...speccially for jess..cuz she's uber sexy and shes going to make one hellllll of a girlfriend once she catches the right guy... ive learned so much from this girl its not even funny...i know we fight a lot...and we have different views...but she's the best friend that anyone..ANYONE..could ask for... this girl is beautiful...she has so much to offer and i cant wait for her to find the guy that will finally appreciate all of her goodness... shes the fuckin shit... LOVE U JDAV!!!! fellas need to watch out for jbeezy and jdav...cuz we're awesome... and we get what we want! right jess? hahah... we rock many socks! okay well thisd journal is way long so ima go to bed or somethin bc i have a family function tommorow morning! bleh... mornings suck..but yea... thats it...*kisses*
jj
ps...timmay marzec~ i love you and miss u uber much! i need u in my life!!!!
so in other news... i need to go shopping bc im losing weight yet again and now i need to lower my size from a six to whatever fits...all my new pants are too big now and i need to wear a belt...and let me tell u that i had to add holes to this belt bc the medium size belt is too big...lord i never thought a mediuma anything would be to big for me but oh well...im not complaining... im happy with my body... ive been workin to eat healthier... and its working... i feel great, i look great in my eyes...(who cares what anyone else thinks right?) and im doin great... this is my summer... me and jess said in the winter that this summer will be for us...self discovery here we come... me and jess are two hot ladies on the prowl...betta watch out...speccially for jess..cuz she's uber sexy and shes going to make one hellllll of a girlfriend once she catches the right guy... ive learned so much from this girl its not even funny...i know we fight a lot...and we have different views...but she's the best friend that anyone..ANYONE..could ask for... this girl is beautiful...she has so much to offer and i cant wait for her to find the guy that will finally appreciate all of her goodness... shes the fuckin shit... LOVE U JDAV!!!! fellas need to watch out for jbeezy and jdav...cuz we're awesome... and we get what we want! right jess? hahah... we rock many socks! okay well thisd journal is way long so ima go to bed or somethin bc i have a family function tommorow morning! bleh... mornings suck..but yea... thats it...*kisses*
jj
ps...timmay marzec~ i love you and miss u uber much! i need u in my life!!!!